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sometimes.. i juz wished that my parents could understand me. they nvr will. whenever wehave a fight, i said they do not understand me. but they would say they understand me, n scold me back for talking back. they would nvr ever understand me. what i want, they dun want. wad i dun want, they want. n they insist. y cant they juz let me do my own things? they dun understand me. my results.. arent that poor rite.. but they kept saying it was poor. it is top 10 in class n top 100 in e whole lvl. but wad they care? they wanted all As. no b no c. they dun undertsnad the pressure they r giving me. i wanted to go sch alone. but they wanted me to take my uncle's car. i wanted to use the com, they wanted me to study. i wanted to watch the tv, they wanted me to study. when im studying, they nvr ever see it. they would onli see me playing n smsing n watching tv n going out wif frens. they nvr see me studying. y? cos my father would b out at work, while my mum will always b busy doing her own things, n play mahjong. they nvr understand. i wanted my mum to accompany me to the doctor on last tues when i fell sick, she wouldnt.i had to help her take things back home somemore. when im sick. n had to carry heavy sch bag home. no one help me. they would say that now so young have pressure, when i grow up n go to work, i'll have more pressure that i cant stand. so they dun ever belive that i have pressure. if i have backaches, they would say that if i grow up i'll have body problems. so they wont blive me. they always think im too young for things. y cant i ever make my own decisions? when my mumis in bad mood, she would fa xie on us. eg. she wanted to slp. so when we tell her something, she will keep on nagging n say that we r making a lot of noise when actually it was onli her rattling on while we were trying to slp. n like when my rm is invaded by ants, she will keep on scolding me while e maid do all e work. saying wad i shouldnt eat there. when i dint. i onli threw e rubbish there. she nvr tries to listen. but keep toking n toking. she has a bad temper. when im in a temper, she would say im like my grandmother. when she doesnt even think that she herself is. when she is in a bad temper, we make juz a small noise n she keep on scolding us.if my bros fight, dunno how many days ago, she would wait till she's in a bad mood den she keep on scolding us. even beat us. this is her way of getting calm. as for my dad, at least he's better. he let me choose wad rm i want, wad decor i want. my mum even wants to choose my bed sheet. my dad wants to get me my own com, my mum objects. saying that e com im using now will become theirs when the house beside renovation is done. she wont let me have my own com. when my elder bo can. when i feel like eating pizza, my dad lets but not my mum. when i eat maggie, she will rattle on abt cancer n dropping hair. if im scared, y would i still eat den. how i want my rm to b, i tell my dad. if i tel her, she would surely so its not gd. n wants it her way. y cant i have my own way? my results.. they say poor. no using of com. but i dint care. i chi zao aso getting beaten up by them. they wanted me to do my hmwk n den revise. no com, no tv. all work but no play makes jack a dull boy. to them, so wad? studying is more important. its for ur future. all these. but then, they would sai i give excues when im stressed up n dun feel like studying. i want to go to sch, but i feel stressed there too. when im there, i wished im at home. when im at home, i wished im out wif my frens n nvr come back. if i come back, i'll get a scolding or beating sooner or later. but wad can i do? they r my parents. there is nth i can do....
10:34 AM
Sunday, May 29, 2005
FaTe?
sian.. went to bukit batok in e morning to have breakfast. n guess wad. i met my best fren from pri sch! its like coincidence or fate? we both live in bukit panjang. n we meet somewhere faraway. was like real happy to see her. we have not met ever since sec1, but we do chat on phone n msn. feeling real happy todae. on 31 may, i dunno wad day it is la.. i have geo n band. geo starts in e morn from 8am to 10 am. den band starts 3hrs later, 1pm to 5pm. i told chris liew that i leave it to fate to decide. if i can wake up on time, i'll go. if not, forget abt it. when i told my mum, she said that she will gimme money to go shopping at jp den. i was like even more happier. so im going den. juz spend 2 hrs in choy's class slping. den aft that go shopping. shiok.. i wanna buy a lot of things.. went back home n went to e shopping centre nearby.. i bought ou de yang new album.. quite nice.. got a song he sing wif cai chun jia.. todae everything went on so smoothly.. my baby cousin juz woke up.. so i go carry her now.. hehx..
3:51 PM
FaTe?
sian.. went to bukit batok in e morning to have breakfast. n guess wad. i met my best fren from pri sch! its like coincidence or fate? we both live in bukit panjang. n we meet somewhere faraway. was like real happy to see her. we have not met ever since sec1, but we do chat on phone n msn. feeling real happy todae. on 31 may, i dunno wad day it is la.. i have geo n band. geo starts in e morn from 8am to 10 am. den band starts 3hrs later, 1pm to 5pm. i told chris liew that i leave it to fate to decide. if i can wake up on time, i'll go. if not, forget abt it. when i told my mum, she said that she will gimme money to go shopping at jp den. i was like even more happier. so im going den. juz spend 2 hrs in choy's class slping. den aft that go shopping. shiok.. i wanna buy a lot of things.. went back home n went to e shopping centre nearby.. i bought ou de yang new album.. quite nice.. got a song he sing wif cai chun jia.. todae everything went on so smoothly.. my baby cousin juz woke up.. so i carry her now.. hehx.. did something from my bro's blog.. its below..