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i shud learn to forgive and forget and be a much nicer person and stop picking on people's faults ): i shud let down all the burdens and everything. i want to be much happier. and i will be, if i learn to take everything easy and treat everyone as a friend.
12:30 AM
oh my godness man :O SO CUTE!
anw im having a craving for japanese food ever since the day ):
12:02 AM
me, adeline, ranie, stella, joanne, edward and murphy WALKED all the from tiongbahru mrt station, to clarke quay, to chinatown, to tanjong pagar, and all we got was less than 20 bucks. zz. our legs were breaking T_T except for ranie and joanne maybe? the rest of us took mrt back to tiong while ranie and joanne walked back from tanjong pagar mrt :O
we went to the plaza there and sat in the kopitiam enjoying our food from 4+ till 6 :D ranie and joanne managed to walk back to tiong!! :O and edward went off to kaiqin's house while murphy pangsehed us to look for girls hahahah. did a little bit of shopping again :D bought hair extention and hairbands and lollipops to bring overseas. :D
finally at 6, we go back to return the bag, den we knew that need to collect at least $20 so that they will count our CIP hours. @^%*)#@*^$& its not our prob that the people dont want to donate right! we walked so much but nobody want to donate, wad can we do? ):
roar. wad to do with the rest of the CIP man x.x my legs will break!
going to gold coast in 4 days time! :D and my com's back (: my rm is tidied halfway. zz.
11:32 PM
ms khoo was telling my mum all the stuffs abt me. zz. one new thing to learn: nvr speak in front of tchrs. she wants me to be more gentle, but i said that the whole class will puke if i become just a teeny weeny bit gentler :D she thinks that i dint study, but my mum testified for me by saying she saw me studying :D and they think that i aint those sort of quiet ones. but i dint even shout/scream/go hysterical in front of them! :O lots other stuffs. zz.
went for chalet aft going home to pack and shower. played pool the whole day and got to eat a lot during dinner :D the second day, i played pool and bowling. spent half my fortune at pool tho. bbq in the evening :D marshmellows! yum. cooked a chaota chicken wing for my dad which was inedible. heh. the only thing i regretted was not being able to swim! ): i havent been swimming for a long time alrd. boo.
went home at night with my family while the rest stayed in the chalet, leaving only today.
went for class gathering at liumei's house with murphy and stella aft tuition. ate, watched mean girls, played taboo and some other game, ate, watched part of the ant bully, den went home. ha.
upload pics when my computer is back - it was repaired and spoiled within a day.
i prefer anything to whatever ;D
12:21 AM
HAHAHA.
8:23 PM
i wish .... can be .... because i have a lot of confidence in her. yet others dont think that way, and i cannot do anything about it. to me, i dont think most of the sec 4s have mingled with the sec 3s enough. oh well. there's nth i can do at all.
i wish i can do more for the band before i step down..
8:12 PM
the date when im going to gold coast changed from 3 june to 9 june ): and the itinery doesnt have shopping! roar. so dont blame me if i dont bring anything back for you all :D
results are bad so far, only one A, the rest B, C and failures. what im pissed is, I FAILED COMBINED HUMANS BY ONE MARK. tmd. ONE MARK! and i couldnt find any marks to add. ROAR. was so unhappy cos, like amelia, this is the first time i failed a major exam. common test heck lah. mid yr and eoy, so far this is the first time i failed any subjects. went to cry, and felt better after that. wasnt very happy with my results this time round, cos i've got only an A, which is just nice 70 =.=
i feel like going for acjc tune in for a bit of experience, even though im not interested in going ac. zz.
i've been getting a little headache lately. must have been lack of sleep. and there's still 2.4 tml. damn. i hate running.
10:39 PM
my results sucked like shit. no As so far. when i usually am able to get a few ): I FAILED SS! tgt with ranie and stella ahahahha! and stella said that ms khoo seemed to be against us, but jking only lah. i got the lowest in class ): dint really feel sad, but i more of worried abt how to tell my parents. in the end decided not to tell, but sooner or later they'll know ):
the subs like science, which i tot i could do better in, got sucky results too. sigh ): tchrs keep saying that these results reflect ourselves, but i work so hard alrd, still get this kind of results. kao. whenever i hear tchrs say that i feel like, crying =/ wad's the use of working so hard and get these kind of results, when others slack ard and get better results than me. the results dont determine how much effort you put into ur studies, more like whether your cellebrum has a big surface area or not. some may not be good in studies, but better in other stuffs. but to these tchrs, results are everything that shows about us. yah right.
my muscles are aching like shit. damn napfa.
i shall show you, even if i start revising for O levels since before mid yrs until O level ends and revise consistently and understand the chapters, you still cannot get straight As.
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music is all i need now to accompany me. wherever i go, wherever i am, whenever i want, whenever i need. i need peace. i need to get away from this world for a while. yet, i cant stand the silence if im with friends. it just feels strange. and me, the usual talkative one, keeping quiet will only make people worry.
can i just have fun and ignore whatever problems i may have, just like after napfa today?
8:26 PM
chem and physics spa is.. ok. heck alrd lah :D
went to 4/3 and STOOD outside the classrm for like... 1 hour plus? cos i was looking at the answers for e maths p1 and p2 mah. b lim gone thru it with 4/3. and she was like, "who's friend is it outside? vivian, why are you torturing your friend like that?" when nobody said it was vivian o.o well, waited from 10+ all the way to 12+, den me and vivian chionged to novena square 2, where amelia was waiting for us cos she dint take physics and went there first.
went to eat burger king hahah. we three were suuuuper hungry. we ate cancer-causing ketchup and fries =/ den went to shop ard. saw the silver pumps i bought yest at bangkit hahaha. just that dont have silver and its much more ex. lol.
shopped like sooo long. my legs almost breaking. heh. bought three pairs of earrings there, AND HAD MY SHEPHERD PIE! [: im like so in love with it now lah hahhaa. oh yah! watts in sold music notes hair pin! :D:D the three of us bought one treble clef one each, and i bought a quaver one too. heh. vivian is going to be more feminine!
went to bugis at ard 4. bought a pair of earrings, a pair that i've been looking for for sooo long! :D im super happy when i saw it lah. the colour and the shape of earring i've wanted for so long :D:D i bought a treble clef necklace too. those big big long long kind :D
my leg was super tired and like, wanted to break liddat cos i've been standing ever since outside 4/3. if i dont stand i cant see the ans. lol. went home with amelia at ard 5+, cos my leg really cannot take it and my wallet also cannot take it alrd. im like spending money like water. see nice food buy and eat even tho im not hungry. spent like 30 bucks. bah. i need more money =/
i want chiong and watch my tv shows!! :D update pics next time. hahahah :D
cant wait for tpet outing! (:
8:47 PM
| You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts) |
 You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced. You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker. |
art! (: hopefully i can get a degree on that.
5:00 PM
wtf ): i hate the band tchrs in charge.
stupid.
roar.
wanted to borrow the key from a.t. today to borrow the mouthpiece opener for my trumpet. and he says that he's having lessons, so if i want i have to get it after sch. when its 10am in the morning and there's still 5 hours to go. so does he expect me to stone for 5 hours in sch juz for him? no way. dont tell me he doesnt have any free time slot to have his lunch or sth in between lah. and, he expects me to bring the tpet to sch, with the case, when i cant even put it inside the case. i have only two hands, my dearest people. one to carry the trumpet, one to carry the case, den wad happens when i want to tap my ez link card at the bus? how i come sch? and, its like anytime will also hit my tpet on anything without it being in its case lah! ):
and, band practice is postponed to thurs instead of wed. they dint say, till we asked?! kao. blame it on us again. everything also students fault not tchrs fault. why not let us have band pracs on both days instead? roar. thurs is worse. i have to bring my sch bag with oh-i-dno-wad-stuffs-i-need-to-bring, and wed i dont really have to bring anything due to exams. roar. how to bring my tpet to sch u tell me?! even if i manage to bring it, where do i put it when i reach sch? imagine me carrying so many things going to the parade square and then walking up to the six floor. i'll think you want my life.
seriously, i think one of the reasons nhsb cannot get gold is because of teachers like -.- we need a teacher that's willing to let us train hard and open band rm for us, if not better, let us be responsible for the key (yes i know the heavy responsibility of losing the key yadayadayada). not a teacher that's so practical that after syf, hardly opens the band rm for us anymore with the reason "i want them to have a good rest" and "exams are coming/over, i want them to have a good rest". we have rested for long enough, thank you. more than one month without our instruments. our techniques are going down the drain now, mind you. if you want us to get a gold for syf, shouldnt you let us train equally hard even though the next syf is still a long time away? this way, we'll be able to maintain a better standard. not like last min chiong everything. in my heart, i think you all are just act enthu abt band. as if you all are. yes, i know, if this is ever read by a tchr, i'll be gone case. then, where's my freedom of speech?
if im the band tchr in charge, you can bet i'll give the band the best i can, and they'll be able to get a gwh for you. we all miss band and we want band practices, but all the tchrs do are to prevent us from going to the band rm for practices. oh yeah, with tchrs like them which stay like that during the syf period, you can be sure of getting a cop.
stupid.
roar.
wanted to borrow the key from a.t. today to borrow the mouthpiece opener for my trumpet. and he says that he's having lessons, so if i want i have to get it after sch. when its 10am in the morning and there's still 5 hours to go. so does he expect me to stone for 5 hours in sch juz for him? no way. dont tell me he doesnt have any free time slot to have his lunch or sth in between lah. and, he expects me to bring the tpet to sch, with the case, when i cant even put it inside the case. i have only two hands, my dearest people. one to carry the trumpet, one to carry the case, den wad happens when i want to tap my ez link card at the bus? how i come sch? and, its like anytime will also hit my tpet on anything without it being in its case lah! ):
and, band practice is postponed to thurs instead of wed. they dint say, till we asked?! kao. blame it on us again. everything also students fault not tchrs fault. why not let us have band pracs on both days instead? roar. thurs is worse. i have to bring my sch bag with oh-i-dno-wad-stuffs-i-need-to-bring, and wed i dont really have to bring anything due to exams. roar. how to bring my tpet to sch u tell me?! even if i manage to bring it, where do i put it when i reach sch? imagine me carrying so many things going to the parade square and then walking up to the six floor. i'll think you want my life.
seriously, i think one of the reasons nhsb cannot get gold is because of teachers like -.- we need a teacher that's willing to let us train hard and open band rm for us, if not better, let us be responsible for the key (yes i know the heavy responsibility of losing the key yadayadayada). not a teacher that's so practical that after syf, hardly opens the band rm for us anymore with the reason "i want them to have a good rest" and "exams are coming/over, i want them to have a good rest". we have rested for long enough, thank you. more than one month without our instruments. our techniques are going down the drain now, mind you. if you want us to get a gold for syf, shouldnt you let us train equally hard even though the next syf is still a long time away? this way, we'll be able to maintain a better standard. not like last min chiong everything. in my heart, i think you all are just act enthu abt band. as if you all are. yes, i know, if this is ever read by a tchr, i'll be gone case. then, where's my freedom of speech?
if im the band tchr in charge, you can bet i'll give the band the best i can, and they'll be able to get a gwh for you. we all miss band and we want band practices, but all the tchrs do are to prevent us from going to the band rm for practices. oh yeah, with tchrs like them which stay like that during the syf period, you can be sure of getting a cop.
the long awaited end of exams are finally here. tomorrow...
3:48 PM
among the whole band, who are those who really go and listen to band concerts? who are those that dont fall asleep when listening to band music? yes, i know we all love band, we all want to improve and help the band, bring the band to greater heights. but think, wad if the band is not fun. the band is those very very serious kind. i dont think they will like coming to band. maybe a few will still come, yes. the rest, i dont know.
as for vscb, some of them that i know of, are those really like music that kind. go for band concerts, go listen to the bands that are playing for syf, striving to improve themselves all the time etc. how many in our band will really take the initiative to go and watch bands play, bother to find out the details, go and listen to the bands playing for syf etc?
oh well. just a piece of my mind after the syf stuffs.
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you know, its a nice feeling when you're like, alone, in silence, and you listen to music. you can hear every single bit of the instrument that made up the music, be it instrumental or vocal, english or chinese, or any genre of music. sometimes, i ignore the vocal music and focus on the instrumental, and you'll find the piece of music real nice. really. especially when its a classical music, you can hear all the beautiful parts of the music and you will enjoy every bit and piece of the music. the feeling is, quite undescribable. you should try it too. maybe like, at night. switch on ur mp3 to a moderate volume, not too soft, not too loud. yep. better if its one of ur favourite piece of music, then you'll be able to appreciate it more.
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four more exams to go. im pretty lucky today. the piece of paper that junjie gave amelia came out for bio practical, exactly the same. therefore i knew how to do. and i told stella before the bio practical, so it benefitted both of us. hahahaha. and a lot of people dno how to do. i feel evil cos i gloated a bit. =X chem was, ok. ha.
im going on a eating binge ): i shud stop. hahahhaa. 2 more days and exams are over! :D
3:20 PM
exams have been BAD so far ):
english and chinese was crap.
chemistry was hard for me at first, cos my mind was super confused. yep but my brain soon settled down and i could do chemistry :D heh.
bio was.. ok.
physics is dead lah. wad is newton first law of motion? inertia. i forgot abt it, to think the day before i was memorising stuffs abt inertia too. damn.
ss is, DEAD MEAT LAH ): decontextualised, yet so difficult. and im like, totally blank all the way for ss. almost cried. i look at the seq, i want die alrd. im like, totally forgot everything for no reason, and i could hardly do any qns. damn.
geo was ok, except that i dint get to finish cos of time constraint. a few others who chose development also dint see the part c, ten marks gone for nth. =/
den here come maths. my best subject, which i think is going to be the worst for this mid yr. e maths paper 1 was ok, but paper 2 is, like, WTF! i dint know how to do sooo many qns lah. 30 marks out of 100 gone alrd. same for a maths paper 1. suck lah. i can go cry le ): a maths p2 was ok, at least i managed to finish the whole paper. I MANAGED TO DO CIRCULAR MEASURE QNS!!! quite a feat for me cos last yr i dint listen in class at all due to ms teo den keep on failing that chap. i had half an hour left to do de circular measure, and i only managed to see how to do at the last 11 mins and chionged thru :D felt so accomplished at the end of the paper, like after so long when the exams started. those past few days were all despair and hopelessness. i can only pin my hopes on a maths p2 to get high marks. the rest are gone case ):
went to study and do a maths with ranie adeline stella liqiang edward murphy at je library on wed aft physics paper till late 5+, and yet paper 1 was still =/ and i was slacking on the day before paper 2 lah! -.- heaven makes fun of man.
oh yah, jec got open a small cake shop on the second level, and it sells nice shepherd pie :D its potato with fillings, in case you dint know. THANK YOU LIQIANG FOR YOUR TREAT HAHAHAHHA! oh, the dark choc truffle is nice too! :D im a pig. heh.
aft a maths paper 2 on fri, stoned in sch till 11+, den finally went to meet zuhui cos she only replied me at that time. my paper finished at 9+ alrd, and amel had another paper till 1. walked with vivian to side gate and we parted.
went to meet zuhui, but in my rush i took the train to je -.- took the right train and went to meet zuhui, went to the top floor to join the crowd in taking the tickets. amel soon joined us. it was damn x.x among the crowd. super squeezy and i almost fell many times. can hardly breathe too. saw a lot of nhsb seniors. simin was not feelng well cos of the crowd ): we managed to get to the front, but when they finally gave out tickets, the ppl in front of us rushed like mad and we couldnt get any tickets. everyone got chased out to the second floor, and we were the last to leave, keep on lingering ard ;P we stayed at the speaker there to listen to the music. dint get to listen to safari live, sadness. we were not supposed to be there in the first place, but we dint care :P stayed there till we were really chased off by the people there den went to the vending machine to fake buy drinks and stuff. dint manage to get back to the speaker, so we sat down at the drum there. saw a lot of people like nhsb seniors and vscb people and seniors, INCLUDING CAIQIN! :D she's still her usual self :D cute and short hahahah. many people all went home cos they couldnt get into the hall/ stay at second floor -_- soon got chased down to first floor too. say wad for safety purposes. pi ah. that time sec sch bands play they dont even care lah. only jc one den they care? asshole.
and i wish nhsb people can be as music loving as vscb people
stayed for the results. all silvers and above :O acjc, vjc and sajc got gwh. hci got gold. congrats to caiqin and sharine! :D congrats to everyone (:
i realised that all gwh bands play safari. -.-
syf makes me feel like going to jc ): but i want go poly. bah. poly doesnt have syf! ): why? ):
my com broke down during my exam time @(*%)*@!)$ using my bro's one now. boooooo. SUCK LAH ): all my stuffs are going to be gone, damn. all the memories.
3:15 PM