and ah ray, it's none of your problem? it WAS between me and doreen, and xiaoboi got into the picture just because doreen tried to ask him for advice, thus his BIG reaction. and now you all trying to come in also huh -_- you want know his name, its suan fong.
to ah max, dont shoot my friend. since this whole thing is about me and doreen, why are you all coming here? leave him alone. and i have no intention to have a fight at all, thank you. win or lose, i dont care.
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ah i broke my hiatus ): cos i wanna blog abt the fight at macs at bpp today! :O
went there to study with adeline den at 5+ we wanted to go off le, some adult guy went to slap a student from west spring. then there was this woman whom i think look like some middle age woman trying to act young hahahahaha. she kept repeating and scolding him, say wad he keep on kicking the chair, pushing the chair (when its fixed there!) and want him to say sorry. the west spring guy said wad the adult guy also not his dad cannot hit him, den the adult go slap him again :O the west spring guy dint want to say sry, and lucky he dint retaliate. but the adult guy got too much by pushing him to the wall, and push him down to the table den the west spring guy shouted vulgarities. the woman was like "you still scold vulgarities! say sorry so difficult meh?" and the west spring guy insist its not his fault. the adult guy tried to strangle him! den keep on slapping him and pushing him to the wall. the woman down there extra keep on say say say say say non stop so irritating lah -_- security came and the west spring guy said he wanted to call police :O left aft that, keep on hearing the same old words from the woman. tsk. such adults man. how to be good role model when they started a fight? lucky that guy dint retaliate. the adult's at fault for slapping him so many times first, when he can tell him nicely not to kick the chair or whatsoever. and the west spring guy is at fault for scolding vulgarities. oh well. lol.
i studied three chaps of a maths today! :D
10:22 PM
jiayou everyone, and good luck for your mid yr exams. as for sec 1s and 2s, gambatte for band! (:
band celebration for syf today. wanted mr adrian tan to open band rm to let few of us borrow home instru, at least. but he dint want to. -.- call me to go band rm tml to take cos tml band rm open, den wad want me to concentrate on studies. so let my tpet skills become rusty izzit -.- ah heck. pretty unhappy with him cos he always rejects opening the band rm for us to practice saying that he want us to have a good rest when so many of us want to go back for practice.
one whole grp sit down outside hall and played games, when many people had left =/ we played many different games hahahaa. :D
oh yeah, where's xiaoboi? i miss my source of entertainment ): juz one post scolding him and he disappears. another coward? zzz.
my brother's been hogging my com ever since his one break down -.- damn. always make me wait till late at night to use lah. fuck? -.-
not in good mood cos he always does that to me almost everyday and come use whenever i use halfway lah. ass.
wanted to talk to amelia in private today, but circumstances always prevented me from doing so. all the time.
11:20 PM
let me answer you one by one. yes, im angella. dont need to scold me cb, knn, bitch, or whatsoever. i can sue you for slander, in case you dont know. and your reaction will be "sue lah! you think i scared ah!" or something like that, but oh, i dont even care (:
i not happy with doreen den i say? yes i did wad. in the friday post, didnt i? den why are you saying that again? aiyo... if i pick on her, you mean, or insult her, you'll definitely know, wouldnt you? :D still call me watch out.. aiyo, relax man. that's a form of threatening (:
i also dont care you guy or gay or how many people reading this (and i bet its a lot!) but i'll still type all these anyway (:
come give me slap lo. you think i care ah. at most got the print on my face for a few days or a few weeks lo. slap me in front of people, not only i embarrassing but you also get embarrassed wad. tsk. if you slap me, its considered violence and can get caning in my school you know. yes, i know you dont care. but im just telling you. :D
why would i want to go commonwealth to find you man. waste of my time. i can do much more precious stuff than going to find you. find a girl to settle with me for wad? bring in even more people into this? think of the consequences man.. this concerns only me and doreen, so what for drag so many people into this?
did i say i chio in the first place? aiyo. i always say i ugly wad. dint say i chio. so how come i buyaolian? im not interested to know how ugly your ex gal is, cos it doesnt concerns me at all, sorry for the disappointment.
my face like shit doesnt concerns you too right? to you, my face is shit. to others, my face may be okay. beauty lies in the eye of the beholder, heard of it? and oh, are you a shuaige urself, may i ask?
shit jiu shit lah, you think i care ah. did u even get to see my face in the first place? no. the pictures were all me and my friend in sunglasses, mind you. or did you think that those sunglasses are shit? then you're wrong, let me tell you, cos its sunglasses. yay! i help you recognise the difference between sunglasses and shit. and oh, may i ask, how you know is dogshit ah? cool. i dint know can see the difference between shit and dog shit, since both are also shit. teach me can? (:
btw, calling me shit is also an insult too. ho hum.
anw, unknown, thanks for your help. its appreciated, even though i have no idea who you are. dont bother about these kind of people, cos i shud be able to handle them myself (: ignore that xiao boi, if he rebutts you. i'll handle him myself. i dont want to drag you in. thanks (:
11:12 PM
ate superdog there. went on to shop. i bought food from candy empire :D both of us bought a necklace from diva, same one too (: i bought a cap and a pencil case from ripcurl, a pair of sunglasses from forever 21 and a watch from lafon :D can you like guess how much i spent? =/ and oh, add in a donut from zinco and a cup of soya bean milk. shudnt bring soooo much money out next time. and i almost bought a silver clutch bag lah! juz that i dint have enuf money at that time ): sadddd. i want that silver clutch! T_T
both of us were wearing tube :D but she has a shirt over it and i wore a cardigan. shud have worn my heels man. viv was almost as tall as me, BUT, not yet. :D
were walking halfway when we spotted this whole line of npcc people walking and we're laughing abt it cos its funny to see people walking like that in the same uniform at a shopping centre. den suddenly she took a closer look and saw that its nan hua npcc o.o vivian said she want to go over and look for friends. and also mentioned abt SOMEONE (: "eh - - - - is there too!" LOL. now's the time to see how i'll get slaughtered by her. called stella and found out they were at the cruise waiting for bus, and we went over. poor viv and - - - - there were getting teased >:D in the end she dint get to look for her fren at all. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
her face after we went back to vivo:
she's going to slaughter me after seeing this pic.
blurred.
camwhore with our sunglasses on. heh. i think i look like im wearing a dress on some pics ahahhaa.
our rings! (:
my cute mickey mouse necklace that i wore today :D
at the top lvl of vivo.
notice that its the same as the two of us taken tgt above. the wonders of photoshop! i photoshopped both of us tgt. these three are originals :D but its pretty obvious its edited, if you look carefully.
she threatened to throw my shoes down cos i splashed water at her -.-
went off to redhill mrt to wait for my parents cos they driving me to some auction dinner at redhill. viv stayed at vivo cos her parents going over there for dinner. LOL.
vivian in vivi at vivo :D
and, i feel thats its so unlucky today. one of my earrings dropped! ROAR. and its so nice somemore. i heart pain lahh!!! someone get it for me again leh ): and, the big quaver note on the bag charm broke! bleah ): get me my earrings back! or maybe i get another one. but thats stupid -.-
damn damn damn damn damn.
11:54 PM
-.-
for those kpos, here's wad happened:
justin and yuzhi keep insulting me with pigs and stuff. at first was joking, den soon they kept throwing paper balls at me. the last one to hit me was yuzhi, and i wanted to pour water and him. he sort of, deflected the water and it splashed on justin's table. justin damn bushuang den go take my uniform to wipe it, WITH THE BAND BADGE ON. when i saw i got so pissed when i saw the band badge, like sort of fucking insulting. so threw water at justin lo, almost slapped him. edward came to stop -.- aft i splash at him he took my water bottle, went out of class and pour the water away and throw it on the floor -.- damn angry with him until i juz practically shouted when adeline tried to calm me down. sort of, lost control over myself and was trembling all over and tears juz came. went to lock myself in the staff toilet for a while before going back class during recess. den murphy went to rap something and made me laugh when i dint feel like -.-
wasnt really pissed with yuzhi, cos juz playing ard with him. but it was justin that made me pissed luh.
AND OH, i know YOU, are super super jealous right? :D yes i knew it. you want their attention right? yes i know. YOU THINK I WANT AH. YOU THINK I WANT THEM TO BULLY ME AH. i rather they leave me alone! playing ard is fine, just that he sort of went overboard today. ohh. i pour water at him you very angry right? you think me, and them playing around = flirt RIGHT? yes. i knew it. bet you go "eh.. you see. angella flirt with them again. so erxin." oh please. TAKE A MIRROR AND LOOK AT URSELF. you're the one flirting ok. even flirting with the most disgusting guy i've ever seen in our class =D i want to puke at the sight of it. STILL ACT SEXY. omg lah. you think you got reeeeeally good figure ah. look at the mirror urself again :D look, i dint say i have a good figure, in case ur dumb brain says that. you practically flirt around everyday, esp after you broke up with ur ex. still like your ex right? DEN GO PATCH UP LAH. you tell the WHOLE clique except me wadever shit that happened to you, LIKE YOU SO KELIAN LIDDAT. say wad i BIGMOUTH will spread. pls, MORE LIKE YOU RIGHT! :D i nvr ever tell you anything cos i know it'll spread. i know so many stuffs about you that you dont know. if i big mouth i tell you alrd lo. tell EVERYONE lo. still keep quiet abt it? want i tell you who dont like you in the class not. PRACTICALLY EVERYONE! woohoo. happy with the answer? everything "I ALSO WANT!". copycat ah! no brain meh? everything also copy people. use to be me, the only one who doesnt like to wear skirt in class after pe. now your turn right :D and also, i write my name on the class tee, you see le also want right. go do urself lah. dumb. go see so many of my previous post got describe you leh :D so bushuang yesterday, trying to drag me to chemistry when i was trying to get my revenge at them. cos you jealous wad, see it as me flirting with them, isnt it? :D today also wad. see i FLIRT with them, you go for chinese with such a gluuuum face right! u think i nvr notice ah. once i FLIRT with them, i muz see ur reaction one you know! i feel happy if i see your glum face. you're not the only one who can flirt :D and oh, you tot that im always gossiping abt you with ranie right? tell you wad. YOU THINK YOU SO NICE TO TALK ABT AH. talk abt you, i rather puke alrd. bushuang after reading this right, go find your ex to read this and call him come hit me lah! :D scold me bitch, i think u're the bitch urself. u think i dno u talk bad abt me behind my back ah. such "friends".
dont worry, you're not the only one. i know. you, and your GROUP gossip abt me! talk bad abt me, rather. you and your group flirt tgt! oh yes, i can see that. den you'll go to your group "that angella go scold us flirt in her blog. she flirt herself still say we flirt, when we dint even" yeaah right. go ask other people, other than those you flirt with. no, not you. your group. (: your group and you ah. so fake. pretend to be friends with me on the surface, but deep inside u're backstabbing me. talk to me, like so fake lah pls. even a blind person can see that. that time, i still didnt want to give up on this so called "friendship" yet, cos of sayhwee. i dont want to drag her down with me or whatsoever. when so many things happened today, all one of you said was, "i dont know and i dont care" and you all dint even care about me, and so obviously talking abt me outside the classrm. den talk to me with a glum face. HAHAHAHAHAHA. seriously, i get the joy out of it whenever i see your glum face :D sadist eh, aint i.
listen to the way you all call names. eeeee. goosebumps liao. call until those kind of sajiao type. OH MY GOODNESS. can i puke? and in ur mind, you're saying, go puke lah! i can read people's mind cos im an expert at this kind of things :D
since i've mentioned sayhwee alrd, so its kinda obvious who im talking abt right? i shant say your names out, so be happy alrd cos others who doesnt know our class people wont know who u are :D
finally ive got enuf and im leaving this clique once and for all. even if i treasure this friendship, no use cos its being thrown down the drain by you all! so might as well i give up on you all and carry my life on happily without you all. better than having to face you all and feel sad/angry right. yeeah man.
finally have a taste of my prowess right people. it is worse in the past, mind you. this is considered lenient alrd. im going to get the whole class think that im super fierce and not nice to play ard with alrd :D but that'll make you happy cos im not going to flirt with them anymoreeee! whoo.
i love my clique :D
and oh, i aint pissed off anymore, fyi. juz type to vent a bit of things that's cramped up in me. :D
10:31 PM
i should be sleeping now. or else tml im going to get a headache yet again, and slp in class yet again.
five tests coming up for wed and thurs. dead meat. im going to fail.
i hate school.
i hate ms yeo.
i want to perform for cultural pot with the whole band.
i want to take pictures with the whole band in the full band uniform.
i dont want to step down so fast.
i want back the syf days.
i want the slack study days during syf.
i want to chiong the band practices that happened during syf.
i miss the band.
i miss my trumpet.
i want to play my trumpet.
i want my section.
i want caiqin, zuhui, vivien, xueqi and taoran back in nhsb again.
i want the past, which will never be relieved again.
if i had the choice, i will never ever leave nhsb. because nhsb is what that made me love music. nhsb is what that let me fall in love with tpet. nhsb is what that made me not hate nh. nhsb is what that gave me so much true friends. nhsb is what that made me and amelia best friends. nhsb is what that let me meet so much fun people and let me enjoy life, have happiness, joy, laughter, and sadness altogether. nhsb is what that let my secondary school life so enjoyable. i seriously have no wish to leave nhsb at all, no matter what unhappiness there might have been before, and now. without nhsb, everything would have been so so different for me.
can ms yeo just let us perform, the last time? even if we got silver, its a good achievement this yr. 2 gwh, 14 golds so far, only. dont be so.. biased.
10:58 PM
SO BE HONOURED THAT I KNOW YOU
POK2!! says:
I TOTALLY AGREEE.
HAHAHAHHAHAH!
went to somewhere called bencoolen street de og, and shopped ard. nth much ): went out, AND SAW ELENA! hahaha! cool.
went for supper aft that at bukit batok. the XO crab bee hoon was super nice! only very little bit of wine, but i couldnt taste it ):
got mood to do hmwk alrd :D
11:29 PM
i see newsweek. i want kill mrs chia for giving so much.
i see timed practice. i want kill mrs chia for giving it every week.
i see the tests coming up. i want kill the tchrs for giving so much tests.
i see so many homework right in front of me. i want to tear them off.
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my mind is like in a total mess right now for no reason. i'll flare up at the next person who's going to irritate me.
i hate school life.
3:44 PM
visited my couz at the hospital aft i reached home today. she had rashes all over her body now =/ most prob due to allergy to sth. looks pretty scary.
做人应该有自知自明，有分寸，不要太过分。 否则不要怪我们对你不客气！！
9:09 PM
went to macs and ate puff with amel, while today we went to SCH tgt aft my chem practical. i find bedok north quite gd. we were stuck outside cos it was full house -.- so listened from the speaker. den went to the cafe to eat and chatted. went back to listen to the results. mostly screams were heard.
hurt my leg, at the same spot again during assembly -.-
discussed the pros and cons for getting silver or gold. silver got many cons, while gold or gwh has only pros and more pros. -.-
nhsb is love.
and oh, i hate it whenever i see despo guys and girls -.- ok this is off topic, but i dno why feel like typing lah. and also if ppl lie abt stuffs that they did. as in, not wad they did, but the way they talk abt the stuffs they did. something that one did, and yet tell others in such a different way, like, wah kao eh! sound so damn fucking despo. confusing? better be.
liking someone doesnt mean you have to know where and what the person is doing all the time. thats overpossessive.
click here. do this illusion test, and tell me ur results. thanks.
8:48 PM
memories, all flow back. just one more month. cultural potpourri comes along and im from band no more. i dont want to leave nhsb. the more i think, the more i feel like crying. i must take photos with at least almost everyone on that day! i dont care ): if not i'll feel super sad lah.
dad dint want to support me, saying that he'll fall aslp and cannot stay still if he were to go. it hurts and i almost cried when i heard that. luckily.. my mum may be going to support me. i hope so tho..
at the jap restaurant; me and amel's
on the way to SCH..
trumpet section'07 <333
trumpet section sec 4s. our first picture of four of us tgt -.- AND IM THE DRUM MAJOR! :D
me and amelia <33
celebrations at pizza hut;nameless school.
all dead tired, sleeping while the girls chat away. and oh, hi liqiang.
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i love nhsb forever. no matter how hard it is for me to accept the fact that im leaving it soon, i still have to leave. i dont want to ): i shall sacrifice my chalet with my family, just for nhsb. <3 soon, its time for me to concentrate on my studies, not on band anymore.
i have totally no mood to do anymore homework. i just want to sleep and sleep and sleep..
9:16 PM
seriously, can people keep their promises? dint we promised not to say why -- got silver? and why is it still spilled out? ...
and you, with ur freaky expressions. stop blaming others on why you're so unpopular. think. not like we influence or wadsoever shit. wad did you do? i want to blog a lot more stuff, but i guess i better not.
no mood today to listen in class at all. all i want is to sleep, and sleep and sleep. and flunk my geo test.
the more i think abt it, the more i feel like laughing at those people. being sarcastic to nhsb, looking down on nhsb, and yet we get silver, they get silver too. HAHA.
I HATE DESPO GUYS AND GIRLS [:
and oh, mr tan isnt going to leave nhsb unless the sch drives him away! :D:D
i dont like you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you.
4:23 PM
right now, i dont really feel that sad about clinching a silver. yes, even though i want to be the first batch to get gold for nhsb. as quoted from tchrs, "if we were to play like this two years ago, we would have gotten gold" look, how many past gwh and gold bands gotten silver? okay, im not trying to discriminate them or sth. it just shows how strict it really is. rmb wad some people heard? "eeyer, now we same standard as nanhua" so that means, we improved a lot! heck wadever tone they are using. we improved so much that we can be same standard as them. well, even though when i first heard that i wanted to kill the person who said it. wad's wrong with nhsb?
at the sch, everyone is practically against nhsb. most of the bands, to be exact. there's one sch, a girl from orchid park. some of nhsb girls were standing at the staircase, in which beside it is transparent glass. she keep looking up, and even called and spread to the guys in her band to look up and see. wow. nice man. there's another, who used seriously sarcastic tone to say "oh chey... nan hua" when the person wanted to know our sch cos of some girls who did sth, that has nth wrong. then when a tchr saw it, and asked wad sch the person is from, the person actually was stunned, and told someone else, pointing fingers at the nhsb girls. wow. there are still some other examples, but i forgot. even the person in charge. when we went into the hall, he called us to shut up, not to talk or even whisper, when it was catholic high, in front of us, talking most of the time. when we were exiting, he wanted us to hurry up and leave, while when other bands were doing that, he dint say anything. and when we wanted to go out, there was another band coming in at the same time as us going out, so wad he expect us to do? ...
wad is wrong with nhsb that everyone has to be like that to us? we did nth, and seems like all the bands there hates us alrd. like, wth?
im like, more worried abt this than the silver lah..
vs, nh, plmgs, all silver. i wonder how mr tan is feeling now.... =/
i have totally no mood to go and study for tml's geo test at all.
8:35 PM
more words, shall be left till the results are out. yes, we know what vs got. it's going to affect our morale. but so? dont let their results affect us. let's do our best, for the school, for our teachers, for mr tan, for our friends, for the band.
nothing is impossible. just do it.
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band again, skipping lessons. i played like shit. and mr tan kept saying out tpet's mistake, saying we were reckless. all of us were super down aft that lah...
prac the walking in stuffs aft sch. den went to the prata shop at clem with yuxuan aaron clarkson jennifer daphne liqiang and edward.
yes aaron, I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS. DAMN YOU LAH DELETE THAT VIDEO BEFORE I POST ALL OF UR PHOTOS UP HERE!
9:05 PM
once a scar is made in our hearts, there's no way to mend it again. the scar will forever be there.
more haste, less results. instead of blaming everyone, why not think over what the hell you're doing now. revise ur tactic of gaining frens. tagging along unwelcomed is the worst way ever.
9:24 PM
im feeling so happy now :D i do not have to do the experiment again, and god has helped me again yet again.
thank god.
[:
11:44 PM
went to eat prata with yuxuan daph and dacia today. and i hate it whenever someone tags along without anyone asking. and those pangseh-kias, you all good. hmmph. my mood was pretty spoiled.
yuxuan was funny, and he's just like a little child eating roti prata lah! hahahahaha. so cute :D at first he got no appetite to eat, but soon later he got appetite and eat again. hahahaha. we sat there and talked for a while before sending dacia to her bus stop, waiting for daph's bus to come and she leaving before me and yuxuan went home tgt.
anw was searching online using my name and guess wad i found...
tmddd.i nvr go those kind of webs lah o.o kao.
i'll upload some other pics i took next time.
9:36 PM
had good food at thai village >:D super full. and the restaurant gave me free dessert! so nice (:
went to jp with my parents and younger bros and my maid aft that. grandparents and elder bro wanted to go home. i bought a pair of shorts, a cardigan, a top, a ring, and a necklace :D wanted to buy more, but dint have enuf time ): there's a letter A necklace that i wanted, but too bad its defected and the only piece left. T_T dint see any shoes that caught my eyes tho. still looking for my silver clutch bag ): oh well. at least i got to keep the rest of the money my parents gave me to buy stuffs :D:D had ice cream too [: whoo shuang. you can give me one million bucks and i'll spend it all within a day for you to see.
zi-highing :D
11:39 PM
going out with family later [:
i should stop online shopping before i go broke ):
3:33 PM
wasnt feeling well in the morning. not enuf slp i guess, was feeling nauseous and my motion sickness acted up in the bus. not only that, i woke up with leg cramp? super pain lah =.= now i walk, den stretch the muscle still pain ): and, my butterfly that i always put on my zinc bag was either stolen or dropped due to overcrowding in the mrt yesterday. co got a silver from their syf yest. damn, so many unlucky stuffs.
get to skip bio and chi tml :D:D gonna prac in the hall from 8-10, and the whoooooole sch shall have free entertainment service! woots :D
and and, i dint slp at all in class today! even tho i was tired like shit. ha. got bullied again during english group work =.= stupid edward stupid dominic stupid yuzhi(RAIN CHICKEN) stupid justin that asshole. bah. almost the whole class was laughing at mee! -.- one day im going to have my revenge on them! muahahahhahaha. man man deng =.= they're class bullies! >:(
i want skip maths and physics lesson and assembly tml ): i dont want school. its tiring everyone out.
even tho im affected by it, but since it has been going on for a long time, might as well just ignore it for a short period of time more and everything's going to be over, i hope. this is the reason why, i can understand the feeling, and try to keep everyone noticed, everyone involved, most of the time. i dont like this feeling, and i bet others dont too. tell the person involved has no use, i dont think it'll do me any good. might as well preserve it like that, let me go and let me join whenever i want; thats the best.
nobody shall understand this whole chunk other than you (:
9:42 PM
You are trying to evade your problems and difficulties and tensions by 'leaping before you look'. This could be construed as a 'panic' situation and panic is an irrational fear - 'loss of control'. You are desperately seeking a way out of it all and because of any headstrong decisions that you may be making this could lead to an extremely dangerous situation. Slow down - matters seem to find a way of resolving themselves. Without sounding complacent remember that 'all's well that ends well'.
In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back' attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude is such that 'Enough is Enough'.
Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.
Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are beyond your capabilities, or your reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal inadequacy. Your inability to take control of the situation causes you to over-react in stubborn defiance blaming everyone but yourself for your own failures.
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You are so adamant at this time, you are not willing to concede to anything. You are dictatorial with your own ideas and the way you are feeling and there is little that anyone can do to make you change your mind, or to be able to persuade you to make concessions or to accept any compromise.
You are lazy - you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security.
You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.
Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of 'Should I?' or 'Shouldn't I?'. At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are beyond your capabilities, or your reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal inadequacy. Your inability to take control of the situation causes you to over-react in stubborn defiance blaming everyone but yourself for your own failures.
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do this test here. i did it twice, and the second one is pretty accurate, i think.
i need my sleep. i hate busy lifestyles.
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