my high fever's gone. headache's not that serious. but my stomach now giving me much more problems -.- its kind of not the first time my stomach's like that already. oh greaaaaat.
let's just hope i'm well by tomorrow so i can go for heian's outing :D but i most probably can't go anyway, my mum wont allow even if i recover tml =/
10:34 PM
i have a splitting headache till now ever since i woke up and im feeling giddy too. and i feel like puking :O wasnt well early in the morning when my dad brought me to CJLMXLB at holland v to eat. had no appetite to eat =/
sort of went home and i slept, waking up like that -.- and i just puked. oh great. if i drink or eat anything i feel like puking them out too. if i have red spots appearing on my body, its a confirmed case of dengue.
i just slept the whole day away because if i don't, i'll be having a super headache like now. i guess things are going to be like that these few days too. bah.
9:48 PM
At first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actually you are cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyful character only in good mood. One the other hand, when you are moody, no one would dare to be around. Because of your emotion fluctuation and frank character, some find you hard to be around. Your Love, You hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much you like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so your love affairs often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Your sincerity makes you very attractive.
people at first glance think im dao leh. when im moody is kind of true that no one wants to be around me in nanhua hehehe. and i'm so straightforward that some people hates me :D love part i dno cos i dont like anyone yet. heh.
my ex boss just praised me for the work i have done so far. i should get my hands going to faster finish =X i havent asked about the pay though... =/
can someone serrrriously give me some job recommendations? i searched for jobs online and all i found was sucky jobs that i cant qualify for -.-
i feel its kind of meaningless to blog somehow. bah.
6:48 PM
the games are totally the same so its kinda boring. but there's new og mates, all girls. heian of orientation 1 is more united and more fun ): during campfire most of heian crashed and came back! :D
there were new ogls, wan pin the kyojin clan head and nicole.
took photos with those that i know i'd never see again or hardly see again. there are soooo many people i wanna take photo with but didnt get to see them at all ):
oh well. photo time! :D
i was kinda bored in the middle of the night so this came out =/
the band was so sweet on mr tan's birthday! oh man. but they won't do this for my birthday ): booooo.
heian camwhoring session at vivo
act cute :D
don't wanna be a tree leh ):
jump! :D i think the coincidence of us jumping in ascending line is so cool :D
the first picture where our legs didnt look like they were on the ground :D
photos taken on ac orientation day 2.
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dinner with mr tan and dacia at holland village today. nhsb rockssssssss :D
11:58 PM
i had a sleepless night trying to think of what to put in and whatever.
she knows i like to design. but she doesn't know its graphic designing, not interior design. urgh.
i can't tell her i'm not doing already, since i sort of agreed to do it for her.
and im doing this for free? greaaaat.
2:42 PM
i don't know whether i should be happy or not, since its my first choice. though i would have preferred creative media design to be my first choice, but i want to go ngee ann polytechnic instead of singapore polytechnic, and there's a brighter future for me if i go to mass communications, i think. though there's also designing as part of the course, but, what if i don't like the rest of the modules? what if, i find it too stressful there? what if i regret going to mass communications?
i really don't know. it's a mixed up feeling inside me ever since i woke up and saw the sms. happy i got into first choice, happy to be in the same course as yinny, happy to be in ngee ann, sad that i'm not in creative media design, sad that from this moment i will be officially separated from everyone i know, sad that i will have to step into this new world alone.
there's all my close friends, going to junior colleges, while here i am, alone, going to ngee ann polytechnic with no close friends. i'm quite scared, actually, to enter a whole new campus alone, with no one to accompany me. just like how everything started in secondary 1. at least at that time, i was a blur little kid. now, i've grown up. i really don't know.
i miss 1sb7 actually, for no reason. i miss my acjc friends. i miss my nanhua friends. like, from the sms yesterday, officially separated each and everyone of us into our future, wherever we're going. are we going to see each other again? can we really keep in touch? what if, our conversations go stale so easily? what if, what if, what if. there's so many questions running in my mind now.
a part of me wants to stay with all my friends at junior colleges. a part of me wants to go to polytechnic and study, relax, and let my future get brighter. after all, we study so hard, just to make sure we can get a good job with good pay when we graduate so as to make a living for ourselves, our family. isn't that so?
i do wish time had stopped when i was secondary 4. i do miss mugging for O levels. now, i have absolutely no determination to start studying again, wake up early in the morning again. it's still long before the first day of my polytechnic days start. i miss the happy days whether in band or in class. i do miss 4o6. i miss sleeping in class too. i miss doing homework. not that i actually did any though. most of them were copied. heh.
a whole new campus, a whole new life. everything's starting anew. i must be strong, and brace for what the future has for me.
i want to stay as a kid ):
all those who didnt get to enter their first choice or dream courses due to people like me who do not want to go junior college and go polytechnic to "snatch" their positions are waiting to kill us =/
oh well. i want to go on a shopping spree to forget about all these stuffs for the moment. yes, fill my wardrobe with clothes to wear in ngee ann!
i feeling like hugging someone and cry now though ): sit down, and have a good talk or something. but everyone's busy sleeping to prepare for their official first day of school today. i shouldn't disturb them. i shall go and hug my big hello kitty head and
i want to watch kungfu dunk and ah long and cj7 and everyone has like already watched them -.- bah. whatever man. i shall go
12:20 AM
not a good impression, but oh well. he remembers me as alson's good friend that hangs out with him from nanhua who always creates trouble -.- and he's happy that i withdrew from pae already. how nice eh.
im addicted to my shows and jelly beans now :D
kind of random :D
anyway, went for heian dinner at taka at food village. go there eat chit chat a little go home -.- go there only one or two hour lah ): and its, the first heian outing where they didnt camwhore! :O
the world's really like kind of small. edward knows alson through the nco camp. edward knows percy through nanhua and vs band exchange. alson knows percy through ac band. and both me and daphne know edward through nanhua, percy through the band exchange, alson through the net and then i became og mate with alson which is kind of coincidence. so we all know each other! :D and we all play trumpet. gee. i think its kind of cool :D
sunday was a mini trumpet outing at vivo with my batch and caiqin's batch. in the end.... only me edward and xueqi turned up ): vivien went mia, zuhui and dacia last minute couldnt come, daphne and caiqin couldnt make it. sighhhh.
they had school and had to finish their homework, so we couldnt stay out too late. went to visit mr kenneth at tuition centre after that with edward and then he accompanied me to buy a ring for my friend. thanks :D he's like damn nice lah. while i chat on phone with friend he help me ask around for the design i wanted and choose =X i'll feel guilty mannn.
the money my dad gave me is like almost all gone already. shitttttttttt.
there was something i wanted to blog about but i forgot. oh well.
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and of all days, it happened on valentine's day.
11:59 PM
imagine, a two year old exposed to the smoking ever since she was born. and she stills sticks to her dad when he smokes. not that he smokes once everyday or less, he smokes a few cigarettes every single day. can he even think of all the harm he is doing to his own daughter? and his eight year old child. exposed to smoking too, every single day of his life ever since he was born. its going to affect their health, their organs, their physical abilities.
he knows the harm of second hand smoke. and he continues to smoke in front of them, in front of old people, in front of everyone. couldn't he at least go out of the house to smoke instead of filling the whole house with the smelly odour?
smoking causes cancer. everyone knows it. second hand smoke can cause cancer too. everyone knows it too. a toddler exposed to smoking since she was born, and what will happen when she grows up? she has only her dad to blame, for smoking all the time in front of her. what will happen to their physical abilities? they will pant easier, be lousier in sports and all those shit. wow man.
i cant bear to think of what happens to the innocent. and i am going to freaking either walk far away from whoever that smokes until i don't smell anything of it even if the person's my friend or relative, or scold the person until he or she walks away and never ever smoke in front of me again.
i'll still be the nice person to you though, dont worry. but it occurs only when you ain't smoking.
8:26 PM
i havent been touching it ever since i went to work ): it was boring, tiring, fun and busy all at a time. hongru got to work toooooo :D and we work tgt only on one day.
and i saw this walking advertisement of levi's. this guy was wearing levi's shirt, levi's jeans, and levi's bag. the only thing that wasnt levi's, must be his shoes. who knows his underwear's from levi's too. AND HE LOOKS GAY [:
HAPPY NEW YEARRRR.
ahahhaha.
i've lost 55 bucks during the first day of cny. great, us sheeps are supposed to be lucky this year. I CAN BUY THE BAG I WANTED WITH 55 BUCKS LAH :O
and i spent the whole of first day gambling ):
went to malaysia yesterday to play with fireworks and stuff. but i got too bored and all i did was to sit at the swing look at everyone else playing, or sleep in my relative's house. the fireworks are beautiful though.
AND MY BROTHER WORE MY BLACK SKINNIES LIKE LOL WTHHHHHHHHH. he knows that i like to say guys who wear skinnies are gay or gangster-looking -.- he came to me and was like, "sister i feel like wearing skinnies. lend me yours." and then he wore it :O geeeeeeeeeez. i'll flip if my youngest brother wants to wear skinnies too.
SORRY HEIAN FOR THE LATE UPDATE OF PHOTOS, but i'll try to update them later in the night or sth. reaaaaaaal sorry.
12:54 AM
and fri was vivo again- with bimbos, paedophile, retard, ah bo, harold the hero, and uncle chorhao.
im getting tired of vivo soon. thrice in a week? like omg lah.
AND AFTER SO LONG I FINALLY SEE GEORGINA OMG OMG :D missed her a lot. AND THE REST OF HEIAN, esp grace HAHA. oops biased.
I CANT WAIT TO SEE GRACE FOR THE NEXT OUTING :D
had to go buy jeans and shoes for work the next day and i spent almost all my money ): had to specially go bugis just to get cheaper skinny jeans. i hate squeeeeeezing with so many people lah.
and, i think jade may become the second paedophile. singing the same tune as alson when they see little kids. tsk tsk. and heian camwhored again, expected HAHA. i bet there's more than 50 photos. and there was a picture fight between jade with chorhao and the gffs. freaking hilarious.
went to chalet quite late ): thanks edward and liqiang for fetching me ahhaha. and so most of the time the class was playing truth or dare, with super little dares throughout the night, or gossiped. got to know many gossips ;D was the most tired, and had to sleep to prepare for the 9 to 9 work the next day, ended up being the one who slept least ): i couldnt even sleep at all, but i did fall aslp for a couple of minutes only -.-
work was.. boring. and the shoes i bought made my feet hurt like dno what shit lah. and all the people there alrd know each other like quite well alrd, so i go there feel quite extra ): cant really communicate with them, i guess.
and im damn tired cos for two days straight i only had 1 hour of sleep at most and im going to work 9 to 9 at cisco at paya lebar till 5th or 6th feb, when my house is all the way in the west ): after that i dno alrd, but hopefully continuing the work. $_$
i wanna be rich. muaha. if i work till 5th feb, i'll have 300 over bucks to spend. and then if i continue, I'LL MAKE MY FIRST THOUSAND SOON :D:D money money money money money :D:D:D:D:D
11:38 PM