it's a mini clique 5 outing at town, without daphne ):
it was shoppingggg time! still didnt get stuffs for myself. damn. got mum a pashmina shawl for her birthday present though.
i wish ngee ann poly people are like those friends i have in nanhua man. no bitching at all of anyone, having fun and all those innocent stuffs. nah it probably wont happen. i love those i hang out with in nanhua.
and yaaaaay. meeting so many of them tomorrow, before and after school! i cant wait :D:D too bad i cant go back for band though ):
they were making me laugh in this photo lah hahahah.
vivian's phone works wonders because it makes me look white in the photos instead of tan! heh.
ignore my fat arm hahahahha.
my friends are love! <3
10:33 PM
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mum's gucci handbag, my lv petit noe <3, dad's burberry shirts
the camwhore and i.
10:13 PM
when i opened and hugged my bag, i practically started laughing and giggling and smiling to myself for so long that my mum thought i went crazy with it. they know i love it so much luh :P
and they actually went around singapore trying to find my bag! omgggg. cos the white one was sold out at takashimaya and the person said there is stock at hilton so they walked there. and in the end hilton also dont have. god knows where they went next, BUT OMG THEY ROCK MAN. :X heeee :P
my mum got herself a gucci bag and my dad got two burberry shirts. so it evens out lah. hhahaha.
the moment i think about my bag i feel so happy. and smile to myself. so you'll know what i'm thinking of these few days when i smile to myself lah. hehehehehe.
and marketing is kinda screwed. i failed by ONE mark. and i failed the quiz by HALF mark. great. have to work doubly hard for marketing.
today's a screwed day. like whatever. i screwed my life up. and i cried.
1:29 PM
I MET AMELIA ON THE LRT AFTER RANTING YESTERDAY THAT I MISS HER, AND WHEN I SAW SERYANG ON THE BUS I WAS LIKE WHY I NEVER SEE AMELIA ON THE BUS ONE. and then the next moment i see her :D
and i saw many many familiar faces. :D i feel so happy that i felt that i can finally start studying, but when i reach home the first thing is to plop on bed and fell asleep x.x
so far i've only read through. somehow i just cant memorise. urgh.
and oh, after ranting yesterday, i lean back on my bed and fell asleep with the macbook on. great =/
back to studying now :D i just wanted to blog this out hahahahaha.
oh, i have a craving for satay and its distracting me from studies ):
8:58 PM
but well i need to start focussing on medsoc! 7 freaking chapters urgh. many stuffs to memorise! the freaking idiotic thing is i cannot study until its the day before exam because that will only be the time when i can actually focus and memorise things properly.
for now, locvid should be over. gracom, medsoc, marketing(omg better not have much more stuffs please), webgra. webgra is so far easy for me to handle, the only module i do not worry about. but according to william it'll get super hectic in term 2. shitxzxzxz man.
man, totally freak mass comm lah!
i'm totally in a pms mood nowadays so dont come pissing me off because i'll probably scold the f word at you, looking at how easy i'm getting pissed with my family and how many f words i scolded inside me just because i get so easily irritated by them. just because my dad says he wont get me my bag again today, i got totally pissed and ignored him and even wouldnt let him touch me. yeah spoilt brat i know but i cant help it.
and i still cant concentrate on my medsoc because i keep wanting to finish watching all my shows. omg freak them lah, why so addictive! harmful to your studies D:
i need to excel in medsoc. and every other modules. i shall mean business now.
11:28 PM
1. a whole shit load of gracom stuffs to be done by this friday and i havent touched it yet.
2. debate on next next thurs and i dont know what to do.
3. medsoc common test this wed and i havent even touch it.
4. completion of medsoc interview transcription and editing by 21 july.
5. webgra graded tutorial (20%) this thurs.
and so, its debate preparation tml and family dinner after that.
studying of medsoc ct, doing gracom stuffs and locvid paperwork all in sunday.
medsoc interview stuffs, next week.
webgra tutorial, nothing much for me, luckily.
this is a list of stuffs i have to do. i have to stop procastinating already. every single thing can wait cos studies is more impt. except for getting my bag of cos ^^
11:00 PM
they can be all smiley and nice nice in front of you, yet behind your back you never know what they're talking about you. like how you can say that you dont like this guy, yet in front of him you act as if you're okay with him and stuff. like yucks, how it disgusts me. i wonder what you say about me though.
i know i myself bitch about those i dont like, but at least i dont act as if i'm their friend in front of them. they know i dont like them, cos its obvious. i dont hide. i may say some stuffs about people, but as long as i'm okay with them, i'll still treat them nicely.
and if i dont like something about my friends, i'll tell them. and i shall distance myself from some people, knowing more of their character and stuffs already. so if you know i'm distancing myself away from you, there's something about you that not only i am unhappy with.
i know some people will laugh at all these stuffs or think that i'm such an ass for being contradicting(which i dont know what) or even think its crap. but i just felt like ranting all these stuffs out.
i just love how innocent kids are.
10:32 PM
you never fail to make me happy by telling me all these stuffs, yet you never fulfil them. so much for the empty hopes, the short happiness.
time and again, it happened. yet i still believed.
time to get out of the disillusion and learn not to believe in you again.
9:37 PM
darn tired. havent slept ever since camp ended. and i was totally walking like a zombie at night on the second day already, not to mention today.
i cant wait for shopping tomorrow!
10:35 PM
so... i'm like talking to whoever that's online from CATS, and many don't reply -.- only jitsiong, esther and zhongsheng. they're niceee people. except jitsiong of course. and so one by one left till there's only four of us.
ESTHER IS VERY EGOISTIC.
ZHONGSHENG IS VERY QUIET
JITSIONG IS VERY EVIL.
that kind of sums up everything :P
yay we rock. like totally.
12:45 AM
it was crazy on monday, trying to mount and stuffs. and i really applaud eugene and jehanne for like, not panicking at all when its already 4.30 and they havent finished printing.
locvid is totally screwed. changed actors and hopefully it'll be better. we're supposed to do filming today yet it was cancelled. another day totally wasted. gonna chiong on wednesday and friday and hopefully we can finish everything.
wednesday-filming
thursday-filming
friday to sunday-camp
mon/tues-editing?
wednesday-interview
thursday-editing of the interview
friday-preparation for debate
saturday/sunday-study medsoc common test
hopefully things go like that. and yeah, i'm socially deprived. hopefully going for dinner with some friends in between (: so, amelia, sayhwee, daphne, dacia, vivian etc etc, ask me out for dinnerrrrrr. ehhehehe.
11:12 PM
i fell asleep in front of the laptop for two nights in a row since two days ago while doing my work. and last week, i slept with my laptop on for the whole night for 3 days consecutively. thats like how tired i am, and how fast my apple is gonna spoil.
and time for work later in the afternoon. ):
and so, there was band investiture and i still havent sent people the photos yet cos i'm too busy to do so. filming at the park on saturday and chionging my gracom on sunday unsuccessfully. filming on wednesday and thursday night, tiring and stressing me up. friday was spent finishing up gracom, and now i still dont know how to explain the poster. its kind of screwed anyway.
oh, marketing test was screwed despite how hard i studied for it. i've got 3 essay questions wrong, and the other 3 incomplete, and the mcq is kinda gone case since i dint study for it.. hopefully i dont fail that badly.
printed my poster and brochure and my logos today at bras basah. vivian was late in meeting me ): so i got bombarded by people who are trying to make me join their church. boo. went to bugis and ate the suuuper nice spicy chilli crab french fries. i so gonna buy it next time! bugis is full of nice food now lah :D caiqin hockseng nick and cheryl came and we rushed to cityhall mrt to meet daniel yinnam edwin and we practically like ran to VCH for the concert so as to not to be late hehehe.
the concert was great! :D & sat beside alson. i havent really seen heian people for a long time i think. ever since the last outing at march. liqiang was seriously funny. and *ahem* you dance not bad sia! (: dont get proud and say of course if not i smack you hahahaha.
i kept laughing at edward too heee. OHHHH. and there's this really cute guy called marcus who can dance in the band. like, the first guy i think is cute from nj? ngee ann is seriously deprived of guys of my type ahahhaa. well but the sad thing is, the guy's sec 3 (ip). damn ): and he's too short for me anyway hahaha. he's damn cute especially when he smiles :P i was kinda acting like some despo girl in front of vivian and caiqin by always saying he cute ahhahaha. and then going around telling people how cute i think he is.
i aced my bimbo test :D
1:18 AM
my dad's driving license just got suspended for two years because he went to drive right after he drank -.- oh great. so it'll be cabbing cabbing and more cabbing this two years then.
i feel so.. frustrated that i cant do anything. i think of all the work to be done during the holidays cos they're due after holidays, all the tests coming up, all the logos explanation undone cos i'm frigging stuck at 150 words when 250 is the minimum, my sante logo not approved thus explanation also not done, bauhaus brochure and poster not approved and explanation not done, marketing plan not yet finished, i seriously want to pull my hair and go crazy.
i'm beginning to hate medsoc when i think of so much preparation to do for debate, and the interview when my relatives and parents dont know anyone from the media industry. LIKE WTH WHY SO MUCH TO DO LAH!!!!!!
plus, locvid now is damn screwed cos the actors cant come later to do filming, so we're only left with wednesday and thursday night to do everything. and if they're not done by then... we're totally screwed.
i feel like crying whenever i feel damn stressed up.
why so many things to frigging finish during holidays?!?!?! keep saying finally let us rest during holidays, end up give us so much work to do during holidays and give us tests after holidays!
for a long time, i havent scolded the f word. because i dont really like scolding it and i scold only when i'm freaking overwhelmed with i dont know what emotion.
but seriously, EVERYTHING IS SO FUCKED UP LAH! i seriously feel like crying already.
don't bother me, cos i'm very short-tempered nowadays and i'm going crazy in mass comm soon.
i appear offline on msn because if someone talks to me, i'll feel as if i'm wasting time instead of doing my work. and now, i'm blogging and i feel as if i'm wasting so much precious time. i'm rejecting all the invites to go out because i'll be busy worrying and thinking of all the time i've wasted by going out instead of doing my work. i cannot relax because i'll be thinking of the time wasted to relax instead of doing work.
when people ask me to help them or talk to me at home now, i'll be so frustrated at them because i feel as if my time is wasted and i should be doing all my work before i'm dead.
FUCK LAH HOW TO EXPLAIN MY LOGOS UNTIL 250 WORDS?! asshole.
fucking irritating assignments.
fuck lah i wasted half an hour blogging i bet. at least i dont feel so frustrated now after i vented everything out. but i still am frustrated and i feel like strangling myself for wasting time. fuck everything.
five fucks. no, make that six. BYE BYE. not gonna blog for quite a while, until everything is over and done with.
1:48 AM