my 4 year old future artist cousin's drawing of herself hahaha :D
hi my dead blog.
i am going on a
i hope i survive everything till 14th september.
till then!
11:57 PM
i dont want to go but if dont go cannot go attachment T.T
i rather go for frisbeeeeee
12:18 AM
most probably going down for throws later.
30th august: settle some stuffs
31st August: training and PPP shit.
1st-3rd september: training then go for ID camp
4th september: training
5th september girls outing
6th september: go 5km run omg
7th to 9th september: frisbee camp
10th september: celebrate sayhwee's birthday
11th-13th september going genting
14th, 17th, 21th, 24th, 26th, 28th September, 1st, 5th, 8th, 10th, 12th, 15th , 17th October: training.
so hi, karyan i put out my schedule already, tell me when is the swensens trip k. by the way, my training's 10am-2pm so i can meet anytime after that for the ice cream buffet :>
i need time to go out and buy then make sayhwee's present! >:( i hope clique5 and bbm are free from mugging for a day to go out with me though but i feel baaaad to ask them out because its their a levels already :(
1:57 AM
anyway, thanks everyone i appreciate your concern. im fine after blogging it all out anyway <3
12:31 AM
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing
'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one
I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, we're leaving
And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one
Yeah, yeah
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one
Two is better than one
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humans are very troublesome sometimes.
on the way home, i was thinking. when you dislike someone's action but still okay with him/her overall, how will you treat him/her?
and on the way to school, i had more thoughts, but whatever down there is meant to hurt your eyes, so dont force yourself read it.
sometimes even when you work hard for something it doesnt mean you can be good at it. if you know that, will you still waste effort to work hard to achieve something you cant?
its a bit like playing the trumpet for me. no matter how people or even mr tan (my conductor) gives me a praise, i still know im lousy deep inside. not to mention, what's the use when i can only play well when there's no pressure, like when the whole section plays together. i get nervous and screw up if i have to play alone for anything. or when mr tan is around.
i still remember there was a sectional where i was playing happily by myself. mr tan popped out behind and asked who was the one who played the high f note correctly. it was me, so he got me to play the b flat scale first. i got nervous and then screwed up. even the simple high c to tune with the whole band listening gets screwed up cos of the pressure.
4 years and i couldnt overcome this obstacle in me. no matter how confident i look, i know deep down insdie i have no confidence in myself. everything still applies now, but perhaps in another direction.
sometimes i just want to give up but i still keep on walking. walking even though i lost my direction.
even when im my happy self, dont care about anything at that time, whatever inevitable will still come eventually.
i hate realities, so i like being alone sometimes.
its time for me to withdraw from reality and be self absorbed in my own world again this holiday.
9:30 PM
i've got like two union jack tops, one union jack pumps and now i see union jack high cut sneakers i wanna get too leh. got my size somemore!! how ah!
i dont think i can buy more online because my parents are sort of angry already :'( i received my boots in a large box today they wanna kill me already.
urghhhh why like that one ):
I THINK THE BRITISH ARE LIKE ALL BLOODY RICH YOU KNOW. HOW CAN £140 SHOES RUN OUT SO FAST HUH.
ASHISH WEDGESSS
10:17 PM
on a side note, i wonder why china people must also speak so loudly in singapore. in library or in bus. not like library very noisy right? not like everyone on the bus wants to listen to you talk k.
i always get headache on the way home ):
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mummy bought me some whitening facial product. my parents think im too tanned ): after holidays i'll have a white face black body.
9:52 PM
you read through everything and you cannot remember anything few hours later.
you look through the past years papers and you dont know how to do most of it.
you have one day left to study, unproductively.
1:38 AM
i read through chapter 4 which took me 45 minutes and nothing got into my mind. i dont even understand anything too. i want to cry already. there's just so much to memorise! and nothing is going into my head for the past 2 hours.
someone tell me the difference between a marketing plan and advertising plan please, because i read through everything and i still dont understand.
this is the perfect reason why i always hated marketing and advertising.
9:22 PM
i dont know how im going to finish mugging for all of it by wednesday. i feel like dying already. everyone started on advertising except me :/ i shouldnt even have gone to play badminton because it got me so tired that i woke up only at 10.30pm.
sighzzz. advertising is just not for me.
memorising 3cm worth of pages with size 12 font? good luck, go me.
10:52 PM
i think i didnt do that well for MRM paper? i hope i can get A though.. :/ fat hope i guess.
i've relaxed and ate enough for today. tomorrow, badminton in the afternoon with cousins and then home to start tackling advertising. I KNOW I CAN.
dad makes me fat. he feeds me with so much food everyday. he tempted me with going to buy chilli crabs, then opening a can of abalone but i didnt go for it. THEN HE ORDERED KFC AND I WENT TO EAT SO MUCH LAHHHHH. sigh. im a fat fat pig. finally lose 1 kg already i think, i think i gained it back. ):
i want to burn my MRM textbook. it will give me so much satisfaction. but no, i decided i shall go sell it off and earn monehhhh.
12:42 AM
on a side note, i'm almost done with mugging for MRM! :) i shall revise everything tomorrow and then do some papers!
& so, unable to resist the temptation, i finally got my levi's shorts! :)
credits to UO
i have been eyeing it for like ever since i saw it millions of years ago. was afraid to get the wrong size yada yada because from the reviews its like, the sizes vary A LOT even if you get your own size. so im praying that it'll suit me fine. if not i'll really go and cry!
now my bank really no money ): no money to spend omg. i got no money on hand to put in also. omg.
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I WANT YOGHURT. LOTS AND LOTS OF YOGHURT.
lot 1 study & eat yoghurt, anyone?
2:06 AM
i just hope i can finish mugging in time though :x
MRM results are satisfactory i guess? but Newswriting is shit i tell you. WHY DID SHE WRITE C+, THEN CANCEL OFF THE+??!?!! T.T damn sad.
i managed to scam karyan of a chocolate shake though >:D next time i get any A treat you back hahah!
plans to go play pool got changed to watching movie at the last minute. watched where got ghost at west mall and HAHAHAHA EVEN GUYS WILL GET SCARED HAHAHA =D
12:21 AM
SAY IT LOOKS NICE. OR ELSE.
cornflake + nutella. i tasted a few, didnt put in enough nutella ): i hope it does stay together though! only had a medium box of cornflake, so i guess there wasnt really enough cups.
whoever that gets to eat it tell me it tastes nice else i kill you!
11:27 PM
1. swim
2. cycle
3. bbq
4. play pool
swim almost every morning after exams. think im not going to work bah. im really itching to swiiiiiim.
cycle at east coast park!! then bbq after that. havent done that in a long time already. waiting for A levels to be over, then 4o6 chalet with it (:
play pool on monday!
i wanna go out and slack too. i wanna wear my new pretty clothes that reached :D
5:59 PM
and this is how i look with makeup on. looks like no makeup also :P and i actually think my hair looks okay here! :O
11:54 PM
im quite obsessed with lots of denim shorts now. i see a lot of them online and i want to get them all but im resisting because of the number of pairs i have already ): im obsessing with cropped tops too, but i only have one. cannot bear to cut up any plain tops just for it. and if i buy plain cropped tops its not worth it. i have lots of clothes havent wear yet also..... i should stop T.T
i think mum's going to kill me with the number of parcels im receiving now. still got some gonna reach me :x i've got the shoes that hx and me ordered, and some asos loots today. i loooove the floral cropped top! wear it with just high waisted shorts look damn nice. but that means revealing a bit of the
credits to asos.
nice right! too bad singapore you dont see people wear like this right lol. and i not as sexy as her to wear it like thissss.
anybody wanna play pool with meeeeee?
6:56 PM
i know your secret fetish. your inner pervert is coming out.
1:19 PM
5CM BIG FREAKING FLYING MOTHER COCKROACH FREAKING CHASED ME IN MY HOUSE.
i was going into the toilet when i heard a buzzing sound. next, i saw a freaking big cockroach climbing on the wall of the kitchen. i was still calm and decided to get the insecticide to spray it till it dies a long torturing death.
but hey. the cockroach knew that i was going to kill it. so the moment i wanted to spray, IT SPREAD OUT ITS WINGS AND FLEW TOWARDS ME #)$(%)@(%@_)#($_
i ran into my room and scared my maid up and i have since stayed away from the kitchen. i hope it flies out through the window by the next morning. AND I AM GOING TO GET THE MAID TO CLEAN THE WHOLE KITCHEN IN CASE IT LAYS ITS FREAKING EGGS THERE.
i swear its 5cm big. if only it was a male cockroach. it wont fly. IT'D DIE.
i dont care, i will camp in my room till its daylight. i wont go to the toilet even if its urgent. i wont go to the kitchen even if im hungry. i wont go to the kitchen even if im thirsty.
i didnt scream though!!
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went for sing open.. and felt that as if npu is going nowhere :/ i suddenly felt like, we havent improved since NP Open. i see other teams so damn united. npu? and a lot of other negative stuffs. blah. never mind. there'll be the training during holidays and camp to improve a lot!
pedophile in action
I
LOOK
FAT compared to julia
will upload the rest on facebook.... soon k. :D
both julia and me wore red coincidentally HAHA. both black slippers. and dark bottoms. and ugly haircut. and we spot same cute guy
11:04 PM
karyan, you're really really so damn unhygienic and dirty. please bathe everyday at least in the afternoon else i dont want to be your friend anymore. bye.
11:15 PM
my advertising group. who made life better for me.
like how 3/4 of the class was still awake at 4am doing MRM and MM on wednesday. and after one encouraging message in a mass conversation it continued by having everyone else cheering each other on :')
lenne! without her, tvprod is going down the drain seriously.
like how we'd consult our tutors and then share with each other the information we got. i still remember how julia sim helped my group countless of times especially for MRM.
my advertising class with jenny low. she's the most awesome teacher ever and my class is damn lucky to be the only one she teaches.
like how i'd always ask everyone questions for Advertising and many other modules and everyone always helps me.
i like to call you sayafinaz though hehehehehehe. [edit]OMG I JUST REALISED I LOOK MORE TANNED THAN INTAN?![/edit]
yay. actually i like this class better than T104/T109 LOL. i think if we were to be in this class since year 1, it'd be damn great. but if i werent in T104/T109, i wouldnt have met my clique or jill or any other awesome people.
and i realised that my hair is really DAMN FUGLY in all the photos. T.T and how damn bad i look without sleep. oh my god.
and okay, i went around koping pictures LOL. since they didnt mass send to class! ): credits to intan and matthew k hahahah. and credits to riley for the pictures in the previous posts.
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koped more from intan's facebook :P
clare and me, the two tallest girl in class :D
jingying is like a small little girl standing in between us LOL.
lenne! her photoshop skills are the best. she's daaamn creative too :>
samantha! it's her who stayed up with me every single night till like 3 or 4 am. thanks :)
i bend down to make her look tall hehehe
riley! the model for their group hahah.
showing how tall we are again =D
haha so short that we can just high five above her :P
look at bibek's face and FEET! ahahhaa. tiptoe also not my height :P
im going to die soon because my mum's chopping me with the number of parcels i've received. not to mention two more are on their way to my house and some still on the way to singapore...........
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5:51 PM
tv studio production pictures! :D
sigh. see my fat body and ugly muscular arms.
sigh. see my fat tummy. I LOOK SO FAT BESIDE RILEY.
the set before blinging it
the set after blinging it
all our lovely effort put together <3
my group with the guest (jeremy tan) and his girlfriend.
thanks to him everything went well (:
haiyooo fats.
TELL ME IT LOOKS NICE AND PROFESSIONAL OK.
cleaning up the place!
ugly + fat
all my fats exposed.
riley and me. to say the truth you and intan made me days in T201 much much nicer hahaha.
raquel joined in!
all our failed shaky shots ahahah.
you can see my fats.
big fat ugly muscular arms and fat stomach.
enough of my fats, bye ):
9:52 PM
anyway, np cheated my feelings. say go for run get np shirt, we all thought its some exclusive nice new designs. ended up when i checked the mail sent by fms about it, it stated its a sports & wellness shirt. oh my god?
every presentation is over. yay. my class acted like we're having graduation after advertising because everyone started taking photos together and we even took photos as a class! :)
im damn tired and i shall repeat again that i only had 3 hours of sleep everyday since sunday so i am really tired. people said i look like a zombie today :/ whatever, im so tired my eyes are closing now too. great.
i'll upload pictures of everything soon!
11:53 PM
credits to mycanvasbag,lj
im obsessed with union jack print. i have another union jack shirt going to reach me! :>
tomorrow collecting another flats with huixian! omg heheheh. i feel so much happier now. i am seriously damn pissed off and in need of happiness and venting frustration, so here i am.
this is so pretty. but the price is prettier.
ian sent me some funny pictures while i was waiting to present MM.
1:38 AM