made white chocolate oreo truffles, i hope NPU will like it! (: i've made it a lot of times before, everyone loved it. if NPU dont like ah, next time i make for myself + others liao :P
10:10 PM
sighhhhhhhhh. sorry if i offended people T.T
andddd i didnt mean to guailan/put others down etc k! trying to cheer npu on, i guess wrong words used. ): ): ):
11:54 PM
too little people turned up for the first half, so it was cancelled instead, we ended up watching zd chuckies and smu scrimmage.
had a last minute scrimmage with zd. happy that i didnt make any mistakes during that game! :)
i caught this disc with my left hand! :P plus it was a d yay yay. i was so shocked that i got the disc since it just slotted into my hand i sorta stand there for 1 second -.- it was a lucky catch, i wanna do better and more of these next time! MOTIVATION PICTURE YES YES.
can see that all of us girls improved for today's training! :) keep it upppp everyone :D
was playing alright at first, but i ended up threw away 3 discs for npu scrimmage ):
goals for today's training:
2. put a nice disc for a mid/wing as a handler
EEE MY NICE DISC AS A HANDLER TO ROO WAS D AWAY BY HECHEN :'( put too much outside in T.T nvm, next training achieve all! :(
and i realised that in every game i play, my expression will forever be >:| and my fringe always all over the place ): and i think back, i THINK i dont pivot in game -.-
NEXT GOAL, PIVOT MOREEEEEE.
since there's no winter league, gonna make oreo truffles dipped in white chocolate tomorrow, and bring to training on monday :D:D
8:34 PM
1. despite the I&E teacher bugging me to send in some comments about my groupmates AFTER the lesson(she bloody called 3 times and even called my groupmates to contact me), I&E IS BLOODY OVERRRRRR NO MORE IRRITATING LESSONS ^^ omg fridays are free now i feel liberation near.
2. I&E profit, $9 each. which paid for my daily scoop :P
3. had a good laughing session at daily scoop! who says people of different cliques cant come together? :P
coconut ice cream + brownie = love
huixian's... something :P
minghui's honey vanilla + waffle. i like this picture best!
all of us(:
BY THE WAY. MINGHUI I REALLY THOUGHT YOU WERE NICE. BUT NOOO I WAS WRONG. VERY WRONG. YOU SUCK I TELL YOU.
12:11 AM
Start of 2010, so far no days has been good for me yet. All thanks to this damned course urgh. I'm like, a little sick already. I get giddy whenever I take public transport now. Due to lack of sleep and low blood pressure oh well. Almost puked quite a few times already -.-
But never mind, I have been cabbing to school/getting my mum to send me home :D this week's an exception of where my money went hahaha. Lack of sleep = no appetite anyway :/
i&e presentation tomorrow, I don't know what to present what to do hahahaha I don't care I'm going to throw to my groupmates to do already since i'm sick of doing so much. Gg then gg, can pass I don't care liao -.-
Ok I shall go have my precious sleep :> sorta can't wait to train on Saturday!
10:04 PM
Dad's operation went well :) Can't wait to go home and see how he is.
And screw you webd, thanks for spoiling my body clock upside down. I don't get to sleep until earliest 4am every night and end up always oversleeping for everything. No league on Sunday, I'm going to make full use of it to SLEEEEEEEP.
I hope I still can perform for training despite having no sleep everytime :/
4:18 PM
i think this picture of us look funny somehow haha. very lazy to upload photos!
mum dragged me to do facial, turns out that my skin is now spoilt from overexposure to sun, so its now sensitive -.- and its like forever red cos of that too :/ WHY MEEEEE.
my leg has LOTS of insect bites now from saturday's training. during warmup i stared at the ground i realised i was sitting at a whole pile of insects. very very itchy ):
should i skip school tomorrow? ): i dont have the urge to go school anymore ever since school reopened. i dont listen in lectures, plus im too tired D:
8:18 PM
gave one rose to her because she can spell rose (: she's getting a yellow one tomorrow if she can spell yellow! hehee.
11:30 PM
THANKS EVERYONE FOR YOUR SUPPORT. thanks to oxy, junkai, yangjek, wenjie, desmond, joseph and jianrong for buying for me! :P was surprised at the rate we sold stuff cos we finished everything within three hours :P was still scared we couldnt finish selling!
went off for BTT, dad believed that i'll fail. mum wanted to save her face even though she think i'll pass but doesnt want my dad laugh at her. so she just said she believed i failed.
thanks parents for the faith in me ):
cut my fringe to bangs again! then went home to put my stuff down and went out to meet oxy and junhoa at town. junkai joined too. shopping + dinner + chitchat! got a top from topshop for myself and two tops from pull and bear for my two younger brothers (: I HAD TO DEMAND A THANK YOU FROM THEM LEH. i overspent so that i'll be fair to both! D:
went home, saw yuxuan at bus stop! :D we both ended up waiting for almost an hour and all buses were to full, we ended up training down to woodlands before busing home.
12:57 AM
throws got quite a few screwed up. got some can catch never catch. ended up only met the goals i had for last training. NEVER MIND NEXT TRAINING I GONNA MEET ALL FOUR. I KNOW I CAN I WILL I MUST.
radio test went not as smoothly as i wanted. it was so cold my teeth keep on chattering! ): ended up talk too.... choppy on air. oh well. at least mario praised my technical part :>
tomorrow btt at 2pm, gonna leave while selling roses and bears halfway. HAVENT STUDY YET HAHAHA.
11:20 PM
my fingers should never be itchy again to go click on those photos.
5:40 PM
TAIWAN MEDIA STUDY TRIP: 8-21MARCH
IVP OR TAIWAN TRIP OMG HOW I WANT BOTH T.T
help me decide ):
2:52 PM
1. put a nice forehand in game
2. put a nice disc for a mid/wing as a handler
both achieved. im happy that i didnt hesitate to throw forehand at all because i trusted myself and my teammate.
but still, i made quite a few mistakes. some discs could have caught it but miscatch. i think all my throws were okay though. sometimes it's really hard for me to cut away from my marker, and sometimes i really cannot catch up. did fine for 3v3 but started to deteriorate. when 5v5 came, i quite cmi haha.
i think its good that i have to mark a guy/a guy marks me. though its really hard and i always end up almost dying from out of breath, i push myself a lot more.
time to improve my stamina man, its really damn cui.
goals for next training:
1. put a nice forehand in game
2. put a nice disc for a mid/wing as a handler
3. catch all the catchable throws. only allow less than 3 miscatch.
4. play like today's training for the rest of the games, but even better.
slowly one step by one step.
thanks to those who believed in me, because it really pushed me a lot (:
12:06 AM
i dont know how i survived these 2 crazy years of mass comm. so im sure i'll survive everything somehow. i'll hold on to even the weakest tiniest bit of strength i have and continue to walk on the path.
and one day, i'll look back again and wonder how i ever survived.
8:30 PM
5:45 PM
but the school doesnt recognise ultimate so we cant even get the jacket even if we represent NP in IVP or any other competitions. bullshit man, why so biased against ultimate anyway? if only the school is more supportive and let us get coach and all we'll be much better.
i think np people will sorta look down on NPU if we get those jackets as a team because they're unofficial and stuff, no?
1:49 AM
Notepad Photo Credit: Flickr
let's go everyone. make happier memories because we live to be happy.
1:23 AM
thanks for listening to me <3
1:03 AM
COME COME EVERYONE BUY ROSES ($1.50) OR BEARS ($6) FROM MEEEEEEE. my I&E business quite fail HAHA. stupid teacher didnt allow us to sell food geez. BUY FROM ME I CAN HELP YOU FREE DELIVERY :P no girlfriends or crushes never mind, buy for your mum! one rose for $1.50 :D
i fear for my accounts now. i borrowed some china woman's laptop to print stuff at ourspace since its so lousy it doesnt cater to macs >:( then when i finished downloading the stuff to print, she went to immediately close and never log out! T.T i asked her to go log out, she said "never mind lah i already close it i also wont go check anything right" then close her laptop walk off. WTH ): changed my email password already. i praying now T.T
3:53 PM
then walk into public relations class, teacher comes in and tells us we have a pop quiz. wah seriously ah.
no sleep tonighttt. time to chiong web d for tomorrow's tutorial ): i seriously hope i wont fall asleep accidentally like everyday :(
hopefully enough energy conserved for training. been missing trainings quite a bit :P
10:59 PM
but whatever that's happening, lets forget about everything on thursday and put our heads into training because we gonna finally show everyone else how much we've improved through winter league! (:
fuckyeahhappy.tumblr (:
8:32 PM
too tired.
and i dont feel happy at all.
where has all my happiness gone to?
5:54 AM
i want to run. far far away where nothing can touch me.
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"because you'll only make me feel worse"
2:11 PM
"Now you all know the feeling of losing. Remember it and don't get used to it."
for me, its the feeling of knowing i didnt do anything to help again. it repeated itself million of times and i dont know when it will actually go away. i think the last time i actually felt that i did something was during Grab.Hcuk.Score itself when i managed to pull off two hucks(and one failed but at least raphael caught it) and helped out as a mid/wing/handler.
and suddenly i feel like i didnt improve since Grab.Hcuk.Score -.-
never mind. frisbee one side. i'll just concentrate on my assignments for these few weeks.
9:41 PM
i spent $100 all on food this week. this is omgoodness. i even withdrawed more money for saturday and sunday. I REALLY NEED TO STOP EATING SO MUCH YOU KNOW.
finally another picture of us :P
open house is really really boring by the way. so i either go practice hucking or use my mac to do work. but i dont want it to end T.T MONDAY LESSON CANCELLED THANKS TO OPEN HOUSE LEH. means monday is a holiday for me. means more open house = more days off :P
hair has been really really bad these two days ):
HARD TO BALANCE THE STANDING BOARD WHEN JULIA DO THIS LEH.
me oxy jasmine.
team dinner. didnt feel like going but..... still ended up going D:
by the way, dont ever eat dessert with julia. it's going to spoil your appetite.
playing tap tap revenge 3 on my iphone! :D
mad jack set dinner like a bit cheated our money anyway. though i got damn full from it.
SO LITTLE SOUP, FINISHED IN LIKE A FEW SPOONS YOU KNOW.
my fish baked rice, mushroom dont know disappear where ):
our girls separate order. super yummy cheese fries!
our dessert(:
shall be nice and not put up any DISGUSTING pictures of the food from julia.
i think this picture is nice!
on the bus(:
IM SELLING ROSES AND BEARS. BUT ROSES ONE FOR $1.50, GOT FREE DELIVERY FROM ME. kind of desperate for business so that i can pass I&E -.- SO DO HELP OKAY.
delivered to some lucky girl today haha.
DAMN SAD OKAY WHEN I GO BUY SANDWICHES FOR LUNCH AT FOUR LEAVES BEFORE THAT.
aunty: wah 这个花是谁送你得？
me: 不是人家送我是我送给人家.
then all the aunties burst out laughing together ):
received a necklace from roo today. thanks!(: took down the one julia and huixian gave me for birthday and wore hers instead hehehe :P
12:24 AM
was reluctant at first because its already quite late, quite ulu and far but ended up deciding to heck care since i really need a walk to feel better. AND I WAS GOING TO FEEL BETTER BY GOING TO EAT ICE CREAM AT THE END BUT THE MAMA SHOP JUST NICE CLOSED WHEN I REACHED ):
so im still sad. i need my ice cream.
11:53 PM
bye.
okay lets make this clear. you, you all know who you are, you all didnt make things worse for me okay. please dont feel like that.
10:22 PM
my grandma say i look skinnier! LOL. shouldnt i be growing fat? i've been eating supper for quite a few days straight :P
I WANT GO EAT SWENSENS AND COLD ROCK ANYBODY? :(
7:27 PM
but when lunch time came i bought strudelsssss from aaron and i ate durian strudel for lunch. made me happier, but when i went to buy drink i saw JULIA which made me even happier. and yeah really shocked to see you :P then talk about too bad huixian not there, 2 minutes later HUIXIAN appeared! HAHAHA. first thing we did together was a group hug, like we xin you ling xin hehehe.
im still very very happy now heh. smiling in lecture to myself as i type this post :P
went for lecture and saw yuxuan! muahaha today's one of the best day thanks to friends(:
EVEN MY I&E TEACHER'S CALL CANNOT SPOIL IT. she bloody called me to submit all the group stuff when im not even the group leaderrrrr. no business how to submit stuff -.- oh well but julia and huixian made my day okay okay so i shall ignore her.
HELLO TIME TO TAKE MORE PICTURES LIAO LAH THIS PICTURE SO OLD. must take one nice nice we all look damn nice in it :P
2:14 PM
but after that one small moment of more determination, im beginning to doubt myself again. :/
i suddenly doubt if i can do it -.-
2:34 AM
ignore my super messy fringe. i dont like that everytime after frisbee it becomes messy ):
but since all the megatron people blogged about megatron i shall too :P
SORRY FOR NOT PERFORMING WELL AT ALL.
every match i always end up feeling like i could have done better even though i did my best on the field. every match i always dont contribute at all.
but one thing is, i feel so much more relaxed playing with you guys :) everytime in npu when its a match against other clubs, i will get pressurized very easily. but if its with you guys, i feel much more relaxed. somehow i feel so much.... (safer?) playing with MEGATRON. its like even with a bad put from me, i feel that you all fight for the disc much much more.
because well, we're MEGATRON(:
and im sure playing with megatron i'll be able to improve more.
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thanks minghui for all those words, because you made me feel so much better and you always get me laughing at what you say actually :P and you somehow got my determination back to play better yesterday.
thanks everyone else for trying your best to encourage me. but when im down, encouragement doesnt really help a lot because i get really really stubborn about how bad i am. i'll still end up feeling bad. criticism at this time makes everything worse.
and i know im still very bad at ultimate -.-
i've got a goal since some time ago. talking to alfred and minghui about it got me all geared up again, because now i feel that i can reach the goal soon with determination. im turning all the dislike into something i shall overcome and one day, i'll go back and thank you.
alfred reminded me. i have an advantage. i can huck. im going to train that and make sure it'll get really far and nice. OXY COME HELP ME K.
i hope the energy lasts -.-
1:31 AM
but i dont know if i have the energy to do so anymore. determination doesnt work all the time.
3:14 PM
9:27 PM
i dont have mood to go for NYTP or winter league anymore, i am too afraid i cannot finish my assignments.
how how how sigh.
10:27 PM
mahjong-ed with junhoa junkai and yesheng, LOST MONEY ): think its the first time i lost, i won only 3 times ): minghui chenyu and gabriel went to play PS 2 or something and apparently gabriel got pawned every single time.
we stopped everything and i cooked maggie for all of them. LUCKY PEOPLE AH.
ended up doing this love tarot thing. i did it 3 times and 3 times there's supposingly a guy who likes me now. WHO AH HAHAHAH.
played blackjack and then ended up playing truth or truth. stopped and chitchat till 7am i couldnt take it anymore so they went off i go sleeeeeep. all the way till 2pm.
OKAY TIME TO START DOING SOME DAMN WORK I'VE BEEN PROCRASTINATING TO DO. 5 assignments to complete today since saturday's NYTP and sunday's winter league omg. the start of 2010 is baaaaad.
4:10 PM