long time no see roo!
VERMONSTER :D
all of us :)
then BBQ at carlos' house on saturday! too much food :( but okay at least had a fun time there other than stuffing myself silly! which you bet i regretted cos i bet i put on 1kg from there D: cannot exercise for 3 weeks, i feel so fat and unfit and my leg muscles ARE LIKE JELLY YUCKS. can the rashes just disappear soon? T.T
outfit for the day! quite nerdish to me already but the rest said no boooo.
fisherman tay & look at all those stingrays! too much to finish :(
us girls
thanks host for preparing most of the food and giving us the place for a gathering!
been long since we took a picture together, or even hang out since holidays sighhhhh.
stayed till 1am then went home half asleep!
then went down to winter league to take pictures and boy i did perspire. damn i hope it doesnt affect. the rashes doesnt seem to get better and i'm sad because i really really want to play on sunday sigh. i wanna spam the medicine which i'm not supposed to :(
11:29 PM
"The cause is unknown. Pityriasis rosea is not a sign of any internal disease, nor is it caused by a fungus, a bacteria, or an allergy."
kind of sucks.
plus, i cant even collect the race pack for the standard chartered marathon anymore. im quite pissed and unhappy with myself for this. my brother and his friend can't go for the run, and $150 fly just like that. stupid leh, cannot even organise those kind like go office collect one. want to keep our money just say lah -.- everything keep saying there's nothing we can do, i cannot comment on it, yada yada, then what is the hotline for? just tell us that we wasted our money and they've got free money?
and i called the singapore sports council up, the best thing is the moment i said i want to ask about the standard chartered marathon the person immediately transfer me to some other line which obviously no one else picked up. so i called ssc again, and this time the person sure took his own sweet time to pick up the call, and transfer me to same hotline even before i can ask him anything?! and duh of course it said that no operators picked up the call. bloody hell, just dont want to deal with anything then just say lah, everything only know how to avoid right.
emailed the standard chartered marathon yesterday on monday, auto-generated email said will reply within 5 days. i bet they wont even reply lah, else is just repeat the same shit to me again.
only know how to take people money dont know how to solve problem or even help kns. bloody best customer service ever i tell you.
3:24 PM
i'm not cute.
i'm not gorgeous.
i'm not beautiful.
i'm not attractive.
i'm not popular.
i'm not perfect.
i'm not confident.
i'm not smart.
i'm not slim.
i'm not the girl that everyone loves.
i'm not the girl that's a head turner.
i'm not the nicest person ever.
i'm not the best kind of friend you'll have.
i'm not good in anything.
i'm selfish.
i'm stubborn.
i'm blunt.
i'm bitchy.
i'm violent.
i'm emotional.
i'm mean.
i'm easily jealous.
i'm too straightforward.
i'm too insecure.
i'm spoilt.
but at least i'm me.
12:31 AM
been wearing them almost everyday now. pretty + comfy hehe!
the banner that i did, which is up on the website! though i only made an adaptation of the work, sense of accomplishment x100. very happy to see it there :)
11:20 PM
4:08 PM
saying hi with a high ponytail and a "cheerleader" outfit! and huge arms -.-
11:42 PM
and i remember i was like afraid to miss the disc, afraid i'll drop the disc for once. it was in the endzone, nothing flashed past my mind but to catch it properly but i remembered being so so afraid. i dont know why. i guess it was just my poor performance that day? i dont want to experience that feeling again :/
3:10 PM
why do i always come out of the game feeling like i could have done x10 better?!
10:01 PM
not to mention my navy blue and white stripes maxi dress, long sleeved top, and i hope nothing else. obsessing over stripes too much, and its slowly moving to polkadots, but only navy blue with white polkadots.
WHATS WITH MEEEEEEEE.
sigh. internship pay is almost gone. i really wanted to save money to bring my parents out to eat :(
10:16 PM
I closed one of the roads, because it's like a dark alley. I don't know what will happen inside. It's full of uncertainties. Nothing can be guaranteed inside, and things won't last forever. It will be hard to even achieve anything I want. There's something about darkness that turns you away.
There's the second path. I came from here. It's full of happiness. It's an easy route. It's going to end up at the place I want to be at. But I won't be able to achieve what I really want. And you never know what may really happen in the future.. If I leave here, it's like starting afresh with everything new.
Then the third path. I can definitely achieve what I want. But taking this path will leave me further from happiness. I can't guarantee it's a forever thing. I don't know if I will be able to achieve what I want. It's full of obstacles I know I want to conquer. Walking down this path means going further away from the second path, no matter i want it or not. I don't want to turn back and see the second path different from how it used to be. But then again, will I be happy inside here? Will I be ostracized inside here? Is this path the one I want? This is the path that has the most uncertainties ever.
Should I turn back or go forward? Should I go towards happiness or goals?
I don't know which path to choose. Someone please help me.
9:58 PM
my first course @ japanese station
my second course @ chinese and western station
my third course @ dessert station
gave like indian, asian and many other stations a miss cos i was too full :(
tried one bite of blue cheese and yucks it tastes DAMN bad. and looking at this picture just gives me the goosebumps.
(okay removed the previous picture i cant stand all my goosebumps)
BMW showcase!
and had macaroons from the sweet spot after that :D
brother bought some home to eat, but since he's already somewhere at melbourne its going to be mineeeeeee!
outfit of the day. SHORTS BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO. but urgh look so fat.
10:38 PM
i should clear the shoes i own soon >:(
upload some pictures soon! (:
4:57 PM
okay i really have too much shoes but i dont have one that's like this! :(
11:50 PM
total damage: victoria's secret body mist (okay the other bottle is really still almost full.... :x), agnes b bag, one pair of vans, and two mango yanyan!
really liked the yves saint laurent bag but it costs $1090 sigh. will never be able to get it :( im willing to pay few hundreds out of my own pocket after internship pay comes in but mehhhhhh dont think can. the bag's so pretty D:
upload some of the photos taken today here tomorrow! :D
11:54 PM
hehe! had kfc delivery for lunch so... while the colleagues were chatting away i was back at my desk camwhoring :P be glad i put that in animation instead of a whole bunch of pictures to blind your eyes hahaha!
my new racoon ring from f21! omg love x100
random accessory on thursday. i think im weird. i like to take out all my bracelets and rings when i do work, and only wear them back when i go home :/
brother bought this from japan! doesnt really taste nice though :(
but hmmm this maggie were like the best really! had it for dinner but too bad i couldnt finish it.
pigggg! on 11/11 :)
and this is moka the fat pig in disguise. it does anything for food. other than that, it just sleeps D:
and it stayed in that position when we told it to stop just because it wanted a slice of apple. real pig!
started on glee season 2 like finally! love that show more and more, especially when they sing my favourite songs :D
i have a feeling this weekend is going to be great. i hope so!! :D
10:35 PM
managed to drag mum with me since she's so worried over the attacks at the jogging area. she walked one round and then saw me reach the end point at the end of my second round and came back to find me so that we can walk home so she doesnt need to walk anymore! hahaha.
i have a lot a lot of pictures in my phone to update but i'm real lazy to even plug it into my mac. next time! :D
11:58 PM
pictures from outing with clique5+bbm! had fun camwhoring with them a lot hehe. and the food at ippudo sg was good (: i wanna bring my parents back there one day! the only irritating thing is the long queue :(
sighhh if only vivian was still her old self and kept in contact with us..
i really like this picture (:
hmm im really itching to go shopping soon. and i really need to clear my clothes somehow! :/
and was looking through quite a few girls' facebook profile. quite demoralising because they seem to be so pretty, so photogenic, so perfect, so slim, so loving with their boyfriends, so good in everything, perfect skin and they seem to possess every other thing that a girl yearns for. sometimes i wish i could just trade places with them to feel how blessed they are.
but then again. i love my family so much that i wouldnt want to trade places with anyone else.
10:33 PM
11:44 AM
And who will actually go the extra mile for me? Nobody. Nobody has done it before, nobody else except for amelia.
11:46 PM
11:20 PM
10:08 PM
Julia Huixian and I entered a place to stay over for the night. It felt like there was something horrifying going to happen with all the thunder and lightning outside. I was browsing websites on my mac when it felt like the photos are going to suddenly change and give me a scare, like one photo of a woman with closed eyes will suddenly open her eyes. Then Huixian decided to give me a makeover on Photoshop and gave me white hair in it, then she left the place. Julia started changing how I look too. Then I realised that it was going to be how i look like as a ghost next time. I kept asking Julia where are the ghosts that she sees, she says I will know it later and prepare for a long night ahead with an evil smile. Then I realised that julia's a ghost too, and I had nowhere else to run. I screamed for Huixian, but Julia said scream all I like, no one will rescue me tonight. Which is how I suddenly realised all people around me were ghosts too.
Then my brother walks in and switched on the hair dryer to blow-dry his hair and woke me up.
Oh anyway, I remembered that the hair was very cool. I had silver hair all over and my fringe was dyed green + orange (like a tie-dye effect). And I still had side fringe. But aiya, photoshop looks nice only.
7:35 PM
i dont know why i was so nervous for this year's winter league. i was afraid of screwing up. i was afraid of throwing a forehand. i was afraid of not performing like the other 3 strong girls. afraid of every single other thing. it's like everyone else in the team is so good unlike me.
at least i did my best for the first match. the second one.. didnt do as well as i wanted. grounded one freaking forehand again.
sigh. i hope i do perform well for the next 5 weeks..
celebrated minghui's birthday/gabriel's farewell dinner at ajisen ramen after that. too filling :(
i really have a lack of exercise eh, my muscles ached from saturday's training since i pushed myself all the way, sort of. and sunday my muscle aches worsened A LOT. i'm not even walking properly today too :'(
12:17 PM