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then i realised that you'll never do the same for me.
9:46 PM
maybe i should have turned back long ago
maybe it's still not too late
maybe
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10:52 PM
i hate this i really hate this can the rashes just go away when i wake up? i seriously hate myself right now. spamming myself with the powder mum gave me isnt helping i feel like dying already.
12:52 AM
很难受，却不能说出来。
本来今晚要找人陪我谈一谈，可是就是想不到一个适当的人。全部憋在心里或许会比较好，因为说出来也没有好处，也并不觉得有谁会明白我每次心里在想的东西的。我心里所想的，或许是猜不到，也很难理解的。
有时候没朋友可能是一件好事。
1:08 AM
Never allow yourself to be treated as nothing by another person whom you valued so much. If there's no sense in waiting, then move on. If you feel you're not valued by that person like you value him/her, then let go. That's life. It's about making wise decisions, not about making yourself a fool.
and thats why.
4:40 PM
and i'm really gaining weight so much i wanna die. i need to find some way to slim down D: i havent even been really snacking for long already!
12:35 AM
Palmistry
Middle finger: Discipline, balance.
Ring finger: Emotional expression, creativity.
Little finger: Communication.
A balanced ego is indicated when the forefinger reaches the bottom of the nail of the middle finger.
Balanced emotions are indicated when the ring finger reaches the bottom of the nail of the middle finger.
Great confidence is indicated when the fore finger reaches past the bottom of the nail of the middle finger.
Very emotional and creative impulses are indicated when the ring finger reaches past the bottom of the nail of the middle finger.
A lack of confidence is indicated when the fore finger doesn’t reach past the bottom of the nail of the middle finger.
Blocked emotions are indicated when the ring finger doesn’t reach past the bottom of the nail of the middle finger.
When the middle finger is prominent, standing out from the rest, it shows a serious and intense nature.
When the little finger stands out naturally from your hand it shows an independent and outspoken nature.
WEARING RINGS ON FINGERS
Rings on the fingers can indicate your inner character. Many rings on the hand shows somebody who is wearing emotional armour and is relying on outer things for their wellbeing.
Forefinger: ambition, need to enhance your ego.
Middle finger: Materialistic nature.
Ring finger: This is conventional and is only noted if there are multiple or large rings adorning it. If this is the case then emotional or creative frustration could be present.
Little finger: It is common to see this in the gay community. Otherwise it could indicate difficulties in sexual expression.
adapted from here
what's yours!
12:58 AM
11:38 PM
Fight for This Love - Cheryl Cole
Impossible - Shontelle
i really love the lyrics for fight for this love (: its damn true!
and impossible. i dont know why but i fell in love with it ever since i heard it - till now :D
3:59 PM
anyone want to go shopping with me after work these few weeks? D:
11:05 PM
endure, persevere and push on. but will i see results in the end?
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gabriel's 21st on last saturday. np opens on last saturday. i didnt play well for np opens. shouldnt even be in the position to scold anyone or be unhappy with anyone right?
gabriel's birthday, wow i think i dont ever want to be drunk at all. i think i'll terrify everyone out if that happens hahhaha. thanks alfred for the ride home and oxy for sending me up! and thanks wenjie for helping me to keep the things i forgot to bring home.
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everytime i see those pictures i'll always get so envious. jealous of things that i never had and i doubt i will have.
i want to be a pretty and skinny girl. too much to ask for?
i'm just another girl full of insecurities. sigh.
i'm always jealous of all the sweet couples out there
i'm always giving people the impression that i'm confident, and all those shit. i wish it's true :/
because it seems as if i wont be able to experience it..
who'd come if i say i want to takl to someone?
1:06 AM
not even a sorry when you should say it, makes me so disappointed in you.
4:04 PM
my mac suddenly keeps having some super noisy whirring sound wah lau eh need to send for servicing but there's no time D: i demand a new mac >:(
and I kind of.. want my freedom. less than 2 months, endure!!
12:17 AM
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12:45 PM
hate all the inferiority mindset. HATE.
but i cant seem to push them away because it always comes back.
i wanna be pretty and skinny and good and smart all at the same time. a bit too greedy huh?
skin condition isnt getting any better it's making my heart ache everytime i look into the mirror.
11:16 PM
it's a new year.
it doesnt seem like any difference to me actually. except that i'm hitting the big 2 this year oh great -.- i havent enjoyed being 18 enough! :/
but still, i wanna thank all my friends for always tolerating all my nonsensical shit and my stupid moodswings everytime. probably pissed a lot of people off last year hehe. and it's probably the year where i got really tired of being the nice girl everytime :/ ooooo boy.
new year resolution? be as skinny as those girls i've always wanted to be.
1:29 AM