even though camp was sadly cancelled at the last minute, at least i had funnnn :)
rudy's birthday celebration after work. then ton overnight next day to watch the SUO seeding but was pretty too stoned since i didnt really sleep :( crashed and woke up 16 hours later at home only to wake up and play mahjong for 14 hours or something? overnight again.
then slept for 2 hours, woke up groggily to training which wasnt as intense as i hoped :( super tired but i went home for another 2 rounds of mahjong LOL it's like my source of income now! hahaha.
i hope i can fill everyday up with something so that it wont be so boring :D
11:32 PM
purple tank top - f21, white maxi skirt - china, flower necklace - gift, silver necklace - diva, bag - china, clock ring - taiwan, brown sandals - random shop in jurong point
ancient skirt okay!! if i'm not wrong i went to china when i was in year 1 of poly which means like 3 years ago. and i stashed it inside my cupboard and only wore it today hahaha! totally forgot about its existence. plus 3 years ago maxi not even in trend right HAHA suddenly feel damn hip LOL.
second last day of work!!
5:35 PM
top to toe, f21 except my belt from china and my bag from ASOS haha!! my face looks damn cui early in the morning oh god.
my recent addiction for these kind of rings haha oopsss.
meeting clique5 and bbm laterzzz yay life is good ;)
4:09 PM
OH HAY OH HAY I WANT TO GO ON A QUEST TO EAT AT ALL ICE CREAM PARLOURS IN SINGAPORE ONCE I END WORK.
ANYBODY WANNA JOIN ME??
4:39 PM
light pink lace top - f21, belt + shorts - challures, clutch - victoria jomo, bangle - diva, shoes - far east plaza, floral hairband - gift from amelia <3
sorry had to scare you with my face HAHA but i put on eye make up!! like after so long. i drew them on after taking the pictures of my outfit haha. and you can see the lace details on my top heeee.
today's spoils: overall + cardigan + shoe from f21. red striped tube from new look which made me look skinny amazingly!! probably the reason why i gave in and bought it HAHA.
damn malu, i bought the overall at wisma and i saw the price wrongly. i saw it as $31 instead of $39 and because i was sharing with a stranger for the discount... i almost thought she wanted to cheat my money lah omg! :(
and i think its damn hard to find a black cardigan i like. find for how many years already!! i gave up and got a plain oversized one from f21 men. booo sigh and stupid me didnt look at the price again T.T
probably boring you guys with my shopping trip isnt it hahaha sigh.
12:17 AM
Confession Time.
1. I like to take buses alone, or take long walks alone. It kind of gives me peace and the rest my brain needs.
2. When I'm alone at the streets with no one around, I like to sing whatever song that's playing on my iPhone. I shut up when I see people nearby or a car driving near.
3. After I park my car beside other cars at night, I'm afraid to look inside other cars because I'm afraid to see another face staring back at me.
4. At random times, I think about random friends everyday and start smiling to myself.
5. I'm actually afraid of sleeping straight, arms side by side. had an experience of the "鬼压身" in that position and i'm pretty much scared to experience it again.
6. I imagine a lot of nonsense in my brain. Like there's a vampire/corpse/ghost underneath my bed. Like I can actually layout in frisbee. Like I can grab a broom and just fly whenever I'm caught in a jam while driving. Like what I want to do in the future with people I want to, but will never ever ask. Like there's something staring at me while I'm trying to sleep, so I don't dare to open my eyes at all.
7. Sometimes I do get hurt by what people say even though I may have been used to it, or still joke around about it. It's not all the time though.
8. I'm willing to help anyone for anything as long as I don't dislike you, but many times I end up feeling being taken advantage of. Yet I'm still stupidly willing to help.
9. I think I put up a pretty strong front, no?
10. Actually I think I'm afraid to love.
oh by the way... NOT EMOING.
so much for wanting to post photos of my outfit to work everyday eh? but i ended up wearing jeans most of the days since i have nothing much on so i decided not to take photos. hate jeans for life HAHA.
11:11 PM
reflection
i just stood at the corridor and stared at everything and everyone. and i wondered what was going on in their lives, what have they experienced before, what are they going to do now. i look at myself. when work ends, do i really want to just waste my time away by enjoying? maybe it's not really wasting time but it sort of makes me feel as if i have no goals in life to look forward to and achieve.
do i really want to just work my whole life away? definitely not. but then again, it's life isnt it. if i dont work, i dont have money. i can't survive in this world without money. i dont even know if i can get into university next year. money money money. no education no money. no money no education too. bahhhhhhhh.
7:30 PM
slacked at starbucks after that. TOO FULL TO EVEN DRINK HAHA.
saturday at sentosa :))))
but before that, szeli's birthday celebration which i sort of went super late hahaha.
what i wore: top - old navy, high waisted shorts - alloy, shoes - birkenstock, canvas bag - esprit.
i look like some ghostly woman really.. so ugly hahaha sigh.
i wanna go back sentosa and have more fun leh. holiday is coming soon!! i have a lot of places i want to go, a lot of places i want to eat at, but i dont have someone to accompany meee :(
12:22 AM
i'm trying to stay away from you already - because i dont get why you'll be close to someone that you don't like or are unhappy with so much. it just tells me that you can put on a fake front very well, and what about in front of me? i have no idea how you really feel and how you think about me. i dont want to even talk or be close to someone who can also be fake in front of me.
yeah those negative feelings towards others may dissolve so you become close again but still... i'll never truly know how you feel. this gives me too much insecurity around you.
2:30 AM
mustard polka dot top - TTR, high waisted jeans - F21, belt - ASOS, vintage ring - flea, bag - ASOS, shoes - F21, camera necklace - gift.
do pardon the really fat thighs and ugly face hahaha. time to really really cut down on my chocolate intake and try to slim down i know T.T
korean bbq buffet tonight yay :D
somehow i'm actually "craving" for a girls' gathering at my house, baking cookies/brownies/cupcakes together during the holidays? mehhhhh who wants ^^ i'll make delicious hot nutella!! hahahahaa.
11:20 AM
sighxz emo ah how how.
10:32 PM
4:28 PM
ask me out people HAHAHA. so i wont have such a boring life :(
12:03 AM
started off the day with d-ing a guy when he was running for a huck! he wham into me and i fell to the ground after that but heeeee doesnt matter! thanks to hweesiang who told and let me to go d it instead ^^ i feel damn happy leh damn long never do such kinda thing HAHA.
the best thing ever? i had at least a score or a d in every match except the last two haha but still!! like first time having so much stats.. not to mention so much game time compared to playing with other teams. and who've imagined a slow person like me running deep and scoring? bet there's nobody haha. plus i think it's the first time i scored this way ever since i started ultimate! okay but because we played against the malaysia teams that were less experienced, else i probably wouldnt be able to score too :/
after i made mistakes my teammates continued to throw to me.... and i didnt get benched. it does help to boost my morale haha. doing something to contribute to the team, having everyone with the same goal and focussed to win every game, the company, and everything, made this trip a damn good experience. feeling happy and satisfying and accomplished and all despite the mistakes that i could have cut down on.
i'll never find this feeling, this satisfaction and everything in npu. not going to say the reasons though..
we could have won smu twice. we lost on universal else could have gotten 1st/2nd. despite that, i'm still happy ^^ it's these kinda things that makes me want to continue and play and improve but well, i'll definitely see how it goes after summer league...
jaws jaws RAWR <3
1:18 AM